Two hours later we are kissing in the couch, Shane on top of me. When we stopped kissing ,we looked at each other and then Shane laid her head on my chest.

“Your heart is not beating as fast as mine” she looked at me again. Like, expecting me to make it faster.

“Does it matter?”

“No, it does… it does, I’m gonna make it beat as fast as mine” she started kissing my neck

“Shane”

“Beat faster, faster” she started biting lightly my neck

“Shane stop”

“You’re mine” she continued kissing. I don’t like when she tells me I’m hers… I love her but this obsession with owning me, pisses me off.

“Come on, stop it” I pushed her away a little

“You’re mine…”

“Stop it, stop” I started pushing her back harder

“Carmen, say you’re mine, say you’re mine”

“Get off of me, stop it” finally got her off me and grabbed my shirt that was on the floor. I’m fucking pissed

“You’re fucking doing it again” I said putting my shirt on and getting up and doing the same with the pants.

“Carmen!” Shane got up and grabbed me

“Get you FUCKING hands off me, let GO” Shane didn’t let go. She looks skinny but she is very strong

“Never ok… just listen to me” the way she said the last part… like I was suppose to listen to her… like when a father tells that to a young girl or boy, like I was suppose to respect and obey that… well no.

“NO, I’m leaving” I said that the same way she said it to me. I got my hands free from her and went away.

I started walking and walking on this cold night, thinking about what a fucked up life I have… how can I hate so much the same person, I cant live without. Never being able to have more friends or go out, meet people, do something different… be somewhere else. I walked for miles by the sand hearing only the sound of the waves. Then all of a sudden I hear this beautiful sound. I walked towards it to find myself in front of the mansion were Justin and Helena lived. Not so war away from me I see Justin playing the guitar.