“Making My Way Home” Chapter 2

Previously on “Making My Way Home”

Shane is headed back to L.A. after 2 years from New York.  She recalled the last encounter she had with Carmen…

Shane:  (Shane’s heart breaks at the words coming out of Carmen’s mouth.  The pain, anger and sadness that she saw in her eyes…  She had to try one last time to see if that is what Carmen really wants…) Carmen…. Is this really what you want?  Are you sure this is what you want?

Carmen:  (looked Shane dead in the face with serious eyes) I’ve never been so sure of something in my entire life… What I want is to not have you in my life at all.  (She didn’t mean everything she was saying… she was just hurting so bad that she was speaking out of anger and hurt the whole time.)

(Shane drops Carmen’s hands and begins to walk away…. She takes a couple steps and turns to look at Carmen one last time… Tears are rolling down both their faces… Shane couldn’t take the pain anymore and rushes off to her jeep… Jenny and Alice run up to Carmen and pull her into a warm embrace….)

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(Present time – Shane on the plane headed to L.A.)

Shay:  Shane… are you okay?

Shane:  hey kid… yeah, I’m fine… go back to sleep, we’re not even half way there.  I’ll wake you up when the drinks and stuff come around.

Shay smiles, nods his head… he gets up and walks towards Shane and gives her a hug and kiss before he takes his seat again and goes right back to sleep.

God I love that kid… if it wasn’t for him… I think I’d be dead right now…  I’ve been taking care of him since I left L.A… I still remember that day I went to go get him…

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and now…..  Chapter 2

Alice’s POV

I’m standing here… Screaming for her to come back…  “Shane!!!  Come back!!!! Shane!!! Shane… come…. Back!”……  She doesn’t listen…  She just drives off in frustration and I am left in the parking lot of the Planet…  Tears rolling down my face and dripping onto the hot pavement, evaporating as soon as it reaches the foundation.  My heart hurts for her and I can feel her pain.  How can something so bad happen to two people who are destined for each other?  Thoughts are rolling through my head 100mph.  Will she be okay?  Is she going home?  Did she really mean it when she told me that she was going to leave L.A.? …  Leave California? …  No!  She wouldn’t do that.  She’s just frustrated.  She’s hurting.  She’s sad.  She’s…  She’s… She’s all these things and I can’t help her.  I want to… God I want to.  But, she shuts people out and it’s so hard for people to help her… to be there for her… she’s too use to holding problems inside and letting it build up.  She usually ends up resorting to drugs and meaningless sex for the answer.  She once told me that she rather deal with drugs to solve her problems because unlike humans, the drugs don’t talk back.  That comment always offended me, but I understood what she meant by it.  She said that she would turn to drugs to numb her body so that she wouldn’t feel anymore pain.  I hardly doubt that all the drugs in the world would be able to numb the pain she’s feeling now.  Her heart is broken.  The one time she let her guards down and gave her heart to someone…  It’s broken.  And now I truly understand why it was so hard for her to commit.  Everyone in her life had broken her heart.  And for her to let Carmen in was a huge step.  I know she was in the wrong in this whole situation, but I can’t help but to feel for her.  She was just told by the woman she is madly in love with to basically…  DROP OFF THE FACE OF THE EARTH… I mean with Cherri “fukin’” Jaffey… huh! Has a nice ring to it, what Shane had with her was all lust and is nothing compared to what Shane has with Carmen. I know Carmen is mad, but WOW… those were really harsh thing to say.  What am I talking about?  I understand where both are coming from.  I just hate when things like this happen.  I hate being torn between 2 friends.  Now I understand how it was when Dana and I broke up.  I would hate to ever put anyone in that situation again.  OMG!  My tears are uncontrollable.  The faster I wipe them away… The faster they fall.  Shane is my friend & Carmen is also.  I don’t want to pick sides and I ain’t going to.  I’m just going to be there for both.  Oh gosh!  I wonder where Shane is…  If I believed in God, I would ask him to watch over Shane…  But that’s another story…  I wish – (Alice hears her cell and pulls it out of her pocket and answers it.  She talks to the person on the other line hiccupping and sobbing from what just took place 5 minutes before)