Previously on Im Into You…

“If I wasn’t with Bette, would you be with me then? Don’t you still love me?” Tina face was stricken with pain, her voice cracked as she spoke the words don’t you still love me. She knew the answer but would regret it if she didn’t ask.

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Helena was surprised Tina asked this but knew that it was an evitable question at the same time. She did not know how to let someone down before as it’s always been her that been let down in the past. As she struggled for the words, that stuck at the back of her throat. She tried to speak Tina but her mouth was dry, and as she spoke her voice was raspy.

“I don’t know how to answer that, I love you as a friend… I used to be in love with you I won’t deny that but so much has changed I mean you have Angelica now. Your family is complete when we were (she paused as if she was unsure to even say that she and Tina pursued a relationship) together life was different then… I thought I could treat people they way I did, I’ve changed so much and we have not took that path together. I want to know where this has come from I mean I’ve always been around even after you and Bette got back together and you wait 2 years to tell me you are ‘in love with me’ she emphasized.” Helena shook her head in disbelief this situation was actually real.

“It’s been hard to wrap my head around all these weird feeling that have been lingering”. Her eyes fixated on Helena’s lips as she remembered her exquisite taste and the unique way she placed a kiss upon her mouth. The vivid memory was not enough it was so distant now she felt her lips tremble with want as she glared at her ex-lover seating besides her.

Helena could not think about anything but Olivia and her past with Tina, and how she had changed since then. It may have took her a little longer to be able to change her way of life but eventually she got there and she did it for herself and not a woman. Although Olivia was encouragement in itself to Helena.