The L Edition: Bubble bath time

So I have Helena in my life properly now. I cannot begin to explain how on top of the world I feel. She completes me in more ways than I ever thought it was possible. It’s still hard to believe that she wanted me, me Bette Porter to be her girlfriend. I just keep replaying that line she said to me ‘I want to be your girlfriend’. How such little words can change your life around.

Things are so right between us; I feel I can express how I feel now. Although I know I have to hold back with the ‘I Love You’ part it’s nice to feel so much love and affection from the person I want to spend the rest of my life with.

Some would say I’m simply just whipped. But is it a crime to want to able to give your all in to your relationship? I have given myself completely to Helena, she’s the one. No-one could ever even come close; my life is full of promises of the admiration I see in her eyes towards me. I know that pivotal moment was one to last forever and now I was able to build this foundation based on that. Who could say they were the luckiest woman in the world to have such a beautiful on their arm? I know I am deeply blessed to have found such a beautiful soul be intertwined with my own.

So I and Helena have spent stolen moments wrapped in each other’s arms, and I wish I could escape the world and it just be me and her. I don’t know exactly if she feels the same way towards me but I hope there is the slightest chance I bring her some form of happiness.

I know its early days, but something’s wrong I can feel it in my bones. Maybe i’m being paranoid but I feel she’s holding back on something that’s happened or she is feeling.

How can you feel like you want to share your world with someone but cants escape the emotion of being alone? Maybe I’m expecting too much too soon. I just want to help, if she’s in pain I want to be able to nurse that pain away.