Chapter 11

When I arrive, I immediately know I made the right decision coming here. She has hurt me a lot, but she really is the only person I want to turn to. Sky is great, but well… there just are things you don’t want to discuss with your brother. It takes me a while to be able to explain what upset me so much.

“It’s Eric… he’s just so… so rude. I can’t stand it anymore. When he arrived, the first thing he wanted to know was if I was horny. He literally asked me that, first thing. I shrugged it off, tried to talk about some other stuff… he also didn’t kiss me. I mean, he knows that I love kissing but he thinks it’s such a waste of time and when he does it, it’s really hurriedly and I just know he wants to skip that part. We had barely made conversation before he was undressing me and I didn’t want sex, but he wouldn’t listen. The only thing he said was that I looked so hot and that he had gone mad not being able to fuck me. I just… it’s like he doesn’t love. Like he only loves my body. I miss the intimacy we used to have in the beginning that we were together.” I hesitate a bit – should I tell her about what happened before we left here? I decide that I’m just gonna get it out in the open. “Before we left, he really wanted me to stay, and he wouldn’t listen to me when I told him this was probably the last time that all the Kennards would come here together. He didn’t get that I really wanted to come… he said we could come together sometime, and he was already talking about all the new places we could have sex. He also said that he keeps a list of when and where we have sex and that he shares it with his football mates and I just… I felt so horrible because of it and he didn’t understand. On top of that, he made places up, just to boast and he thought that it was a good thing, because it was good for my reputation if people thought we fucked in the cinema.”