Previously on The L Edition:

 I thought I had put on a little bit of weight it was to comfort my empty nights I sat in while she worked late. Then came the accusations that I was having an affair with my mommy’s best friend, which was absurd and she knew it was but still she continued to accuse me of it. One night she came home drunk when I thought she was working late telling me I was worth nothing and a hooker would be worth more in investing herself into.

I know I was stupid to stay but I thought I could change be the person she wanted me to be, make it like the old times. Eventually the arguments turned to fights, or rather her fists did all the talking and shouting. I would hide bruises from my friends and family I was to ashamed and thought I was worthless human being. I’m trying to change how I feel because I want to trust this will be different it will just take time. And I hope you will be patient, and not push me into anything because I can’t feel like I’m suffocating. I feel like I’m waiting for the hurl of abuse from you like you think of me as the same way. Bette do you have anything to say?” This was a hard moment for Helena for Bette had been the first person she had trusted to share this with apart from a few close friends and mommy. But Bette had long fall asleep, it was probably best Helena thought to herself she didn’t want her to think she was a psycho. As she let her body cry her tears falling into the pillow.

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When I woke up that morning I thought it had all just been a dream, a very beautiful one at that. But as I looked over my shoulder I saw the bare skin of Helena lying so peacefully next to me. My mind was slightly fuzzy over how we got to this point usually I was so good at remembering these pivotal moments but it was a blur. I remember us being together in the bath, as I look down towards the floor I see the trail of our clothing from the door way to the end of the bed.