It’s been two weeks and not only am I getting the silent treatment from Shay but I am also getting it from Shane too. At least she has let me back into the bed but we sleep on separate sides. Last night I actually brushed my foot against her and she pulled away abruptly. I just silently cried myself to sleep. I do feel very guilty about burning down WAX. I wasn’t ever going to tell her but Paige is Jared’s mom and Jared is Shay’s best friend. I couldn’t live with myself if Shay lost his best friend because of my actions. The tension could be cut with a knife. I need to figure out a way to get Shane to talk to me.  I decided to ask Bette and Tina to watch Shay for tonight. He didn’t seem to mind but honestly I think that’s because he didn’t want to be around me when Shane wasn’t home. I make Shane’s favorite dish, arroz con pollo, and have the table set by the time she pulls up into the driveway.

Shane: Shay

Carmen: He’s at Bette and Tina’s.

Shane: Why

Carmen: So we could have time to talk.

Shane: Oh.

She walks past me and goes into the bathroom. I stand outside of the door until she’s done.

Carmen: You can’t ignore me forever Shane ok. I made your favorite dish for dinner.

Shane: I’m not hungry.

I allow Shane to walk into the bedroom and I leave her alone for awhile. I need time to compose my thoughts. I can’t live like this I need to know where we stand. I open the door and she’s laying on the bed with her eyes close.

Carmen: Shane you can’t ignore me we need to talk.

Shane: What is there to talk about? You burned down my business and I’m the bad one because what I did to you was so much worse right?

She says all this with the eyes still closed and her hand clasped behind her head.

Carmen: Yes Shane you were the one who left me at the altar.

Shane jerks up in the bed and fixates her eyes on me.