I never told anyone the secrets I possess. I have given them tid bits slight insights but not the whole concrete facts. It’s in my nature to read people but when it comes time for them to read me. I get shy I shrink away. They can’t know too much or else I begin to feel vulnerable. Naked in a sense my inner self exposed. Nobody knows the story of my life or why I operate the way I do. They assume its cause I am a fuck up but that’s not entirely true. It’s because I am different than everybody else. Often times I feel as if I am drowning in a sea people. Always wanting so much from me that either I  can’t or  unwilling to give. But I want somebody to know, so why not you. I will go through all the sordid details of my live and let you make your own decision.  Am I a fucked up individual or just misunderstood?  I know there are a lot of unanswered questions about my life. Like how did  I a junky ex prostitute get assorted into such a glamorous group of friends. Why am I so self destructive? Or the best one I heard why do I act like a dog in heat all the time. Well for the longest time these were my secrets. Known only to me and no one else but I want to live my life with a clean slate. No more pain, no my anger, no more secrets. I will give you all the information you want to know and you can judge me if you must but at least you will finally know and maybe my demons won’t haunt me as much. Maybe I will be absolved of all of my past sins and transgression. Whatever the outcome hopefully I will be able to sleep better at night finally free of the secrets I possess.

Tbc if you want. Please comment there will be longer chapters I am just trying this out.