chapter 23

Bette: Tee.. do you miss Eric?

Tina thought about it for a while. Do I miss Eric? Do I miss his love? No I don’t miss it, in comparison with Bette I feel much more loved right now and we are not even together yet. I guess Eric did just express his love in other ways.. like keeping me company and calling me now and then. He was interesting in me. But Bette gives me more personal interest by stroking her hand over my arm, giving me more compliments and calling me baby. That’s so sweet! (she smiled lovely in her thoughts)
But do I miss Eric’s whole being? His trust and his strong arms and his male voice? I guess I miss it.. it’s been 3 days since the last time I saw him.. we shared a lot, I trusted him and now.. now everything is gone, for good. He knows me a lot better than Bette does at the moment.. but that doesn’t mean he shared my values. He didn’t know everything what was going on in my mind, but he knows a lot about my family and my past and everything we’ve been trough together. I’ll never forget that.
And his strong arms? God.. I felt so safe in his arms, but with Bette it’s all much softer and I feel so much love being near her. She knows how to handle me, just like she loves to be handled herself and it feels amasing.. Sometimes Eric was a little too strong and careless, but Bette.. we are just equal!
I guess I just have to get used to this new situation with my new lover and then I’ll forget Eric soon! Because I know that I’ve found my soul mate in Bette.. that’s enough for now.. everything will be alright!

Bette studied Tina and saw her lovely smile.. Oh god.. what if she does? OMG why do I ask those stupid questions?! Everything went so well today and now.. now I’m messing everything up! I’m not ready to hear her say it.. But what if she doesn’t miss him? That’ll be good for me right? Yeah, that’ll be good. Do I miss Harry myself? Uhmm.. God what a stupid question.. why did I ask this anyway? No no I have to know.. I want to know anything about my baby.. yes that she is, she’s my baby. And I’m glad I’m not Harry’s baby anymore.. do I really mean that? Yes I do, it was time. Although I miss his arms.. they were so strong, but careless sometimes. God, being in Tina’s arms feels way better.. I feel loved and that’s something I rarely felt with Harry. I liked the sex, but I can’t wait to have Tina for myself, to worship her body, to love it and make it mine..