Chapter 21: Lost Without Your Love

Tina’s apartment, Los Angeles, Present Day, Tina’s POV

Bette and I spent a few hours at the Planet. Bette got up to speed with everything that had happened. Alice and Dana, Shane and Carmen, Helena and her sister but I was a completely different story which I know I had to tell myself but I was scared that she’d be so disgusted and upset she’d leave me again and I don’t think I could cope without her again

“Oh god T I’ve missed you so much” I was clinging to her for dear life; I had just gotten the love of my life back and I wasn’t going to let her go ever. She broke the embrace and looks at me with all the love in the world “I wanna know what I’ve missed these past seventeen years” I gulp hard; this was moment I had been dreading. My life story starting from the moment I let her go

“Bette I think you should probably sit down” Bette knew this wasn’t going to be I could tell by the look in her eyes. She was confused. I watched as she sat down; I was going to break her heart I felt it “These years haven’t exactly been great for me for me personal; yes I’m a millionaire and a very successful movie producer but I’ve done things I’m  not proud of” I didn’t know whether I had enough courage to watch her heart break again but I knew I had to get it all out there in the open “It all started a week after you left” Bette looks down at the floor, that was still a pretty raw subject for both of us “I went to the C Bar with the girls just to see if it would cheer me up any” Bette smiled I knew she was thinking about the night we revealed out mutual attraction for each other and where we shared our first kiss; how could I mar those memories in me going off with random girls for nearly three years when I was still at Yale “That was the night that the reputation I’ve had for seventeen years started” Bette looks at me and I gulp hard “For the past seventeen years I’ve been sleeping around with hundreds of women” My heart shattered again when Bette got up and started for the door; I had shattered her heart “No Bette please” I put my hand on the door handle to stop her leaving