Dear Diary,

So I’ve known the most amazing person that I’ve ever met 3 weeks ago.  Knowing her has brought me to the biggest realization about my life.  I think I might be a lesbian.  Well let’s say I’m about 99.9% sure that I’m a lesbian because I suspect that straight girls don’t feel about their friends the way that I feel about Bette.  But other than my feelings about her I never in my life spent this much time with a person that I’ve just met.  It’s just that I am so comfortable around her and I don’t really want to spend a day without talking to or seeing her.

This brings me to my quandary, Eric.  I haven’t seen him as much as I have been seeing him in the past and considering that I have been in a relationship with him for just over a year now I’m surprised he hasn’t said anything about the lack of contact.  I don’t even know what I would say if he’d ask me why we haven’t spent any time alone in the last few weeks.  Yeah, we went out for dinner and a movie two days after my first dinner with Bette and I saw him at work when he came by to do some consulting contract work for Alphaville’s legal department and we went to the restaurant down the street but thankfully when we walked into the restaurant my assistant Jamie was there with a couple other of our colleagues and they invited us to sit with them.  I could have been seen as over anxious in my quick ‘yes’ response but I really didn’t want to spend time alone with Eric anymore and I guess I haven’t quite worked up the nerve to break it off with him.  I wouldn’t consider myself as avoiding Eric but our schedules haven’t been as such that we could see each other more than we have.  My time has been spent between my new job and its responsibilities, seeing and talking to Bette whenever I can and on occasion I actually getting to sleep for more than five hours a night.

Needless to say it’s been an interesting few weeks but it is what it is I suppose.