call the boys into the kitchen so we can all eat diner. After diner the boys do the dishes and I take a shower. I try to find something to wear I want to look good but Not so good that Charlie gets suspicious. Here we go some black jeans and a pink v neck t-shirt that should do. I say my good byes as I am heading out the door. Now I am nervous thinking about how much I really want to be alone with Bette. I jump into my vehicle and start driving to her house all the while thinking about how much I miss her.

CHAPTER SEVENTEEN

I arrived at Bettes house with many toughts running through my head. I knew that I have never experienced these emotions ever before. The way I was feeling was very new and exciting yet I had this guilt shooting through my entire body as I fantasised of the things I wanted to do to Bette.

I really don’t know what I should do. I was feeling so conflicted. I decided that Bette and I really needed to sit down and have a long talk. I exited my car and slowly approached Bettes front door I could not breathe or think at that moment as I saw Bette opening up her door.

Bette: Hi Tina so glad to see you.

Tina: Thank-you I am happy to see you too

Bette grabs me and pulls me close for a scorching kiss. I feel myself melting at her touch how can one person cause such conflict in my being? I enjoy the closeness I am feeling to Bette right now and I ache for it to be more but in the back of my mind a little voice is talking to me,

Voice: What about Charlie? you do remember him don’t you. I believe he is your husband? How can you do this to him? How can you tear your family apart like this? You should be ashamed of yourself. Why are you even doing this? Then I feel Bette releasing her hold on me.

Bette: What is wrong?

Tina: I am so so sorry. I want this more than I ever wanted anything in my entire life but….. my conscience is getting the best of me. As much as I would like to stay here with you right now I should leave.

Bette: Is that what you want to do?

Tina: No it isn’t what I want to do. It is what seems to be the right thing to do.

Bette: Well okay then go.

Tina: Please don’t be mad at me Bette.

Bette: I am sad that you want to leave but I do understand. You are still with Charlie and you don’t want to break up your family. I get that and just for the record I am not a home wrecker. I have never in my entire life felt as strongly for someone as I do for you. I just look at you and I lose myself in your beauty you are by far the most sexy creature I have ever had the pleasure of knowing and I just have a hard time controlling myself around you. I will for your benefit however quit persuing you. Go on back to your family. I suppose they need you.

I now break down crying hearing all this from her was just too much to take. I am so conflicted in my mind at this moment that I cannot even speak. I just stand there shaking and sobbing. If I heard her correctly she wants me as much as I want her yet we cannot be together because of one minor technicality. I just continues to stand there mourning as if I had lost someone very precious to me.

Bette gives me a hug and whispers in my ear don’t worry I am not mad at you we will still be friends. I just cannot be alone like this with you beacause the temptation is too strong we will see each other at work. Maybe we can even go out for coffee every once in a while. She places a soft kiss on my cheeck as she whispers goodbye.

Bette: Go.. now.. please….. Before I can no longer control myself and we do something you may regret.

TBC