Charlie walked up to me and gave me a hug. I returned his hug thinking that this felt more like a friend hug I did not feel the connection there NOT like when Bettte hugs me. Charlie pressed his lips against mine and for the first time this week I allowed it and let it happen I needed to know.

Was there anything left in this marriage or am I just going to spend the rest of my life feeling like I lost something that is irreplaceable? As the kiss continued I couldn’t help thinking of her and how much I wished it was her kissing me right now instead of my husband. When I felt Charlie slide his hand under my shirt I had to pull away.

Tina: No Charlie I can’ t do this……..

CHAPTER NINETEEN

Charlie: What are you talking about? We are married of couse we can do this.

Tina: No Charlie I cannot continue on this way.

Charlie: What is going on with you? Did you meet someone else?

Tina: Well yeah I kinda did.

Charlie: So you are cheating on me?

Tina: Welll ummm…………….

Charlie: Who is this guy? I am gonna kill him.

Tina: I isn’ t a man.

Charlie: What!!! What do you mean it isn’t a man? Are you trying to tell me that you are cheating on me with with …..

Tina: Yes Charlie I met a woman.

Charlie: But I don’t understand you ARE straight aren’ t you??

Tina: I Dunno anymore. I have always tought I was. I have live as if I were straight. But after meeting this woman I just cannot live without her.

Charlie: So now you want to dump ME??? For some woman??

Tina: I am sorry Charlie I never planned on this happening. I never in my entire life imagined that I would have such feelings for a woman. I have tried to stay away from her and told her we should just be friends but I discovered that without her I feel empty inside.

Charlie: What about US all the years we spent together was that all some big lie?

Tina: No Charlie, It wasn’t a lie. It is just that after meeting her everything I believed about myself seemed to change. I will alway cherish the years we spent together. You are a wonderful person and I really hope you find someone to share you life with.

Charlie: I always tought it would be you. I imagined growing old with you and having a life with you.

Tina: (starts crying) I know you did. I am so very very sorry. You are a good person I never meant to hurt you like this.

Charlie: Are you sure this isn’t some sort of phase you are going through?

Tina: Oh Charlie I KNOW it is not. I can’t explain it but I know that this is NO phase.

Charlie: Well guess the only honorable thing for me to do is move out I will sleep on the couch tonight and will pack my stuff in the moning.

Tina: You don’t have to move out.

Charlie: Yes I do. I cannot possibly stay here good night.

I get ready for bed with mixed emotions running through my head. I am sad that I broke Charlie’s heart. I feel relief and freedom also. I am now free. Free to be with Bette. If she still wants me that is? I will go talk to her in the morning. It is time we sort this thing out once and for all.

TBC