Chapter 12. 

             I had to go on a date with Clive after the football game on thursday. He invited me to come to a Thanksgiving Party with him. But I told him I can’t because my family is really into these events and I need to be there for my family. 

            We ended up in this random motel having sex, and me faking an orgasm. Everywhere Clive touches me I imagine Shane touching me, Shane kissing. And just the thought of it made me shiver. That stupid arse Clive thought that it was an effect of him touching me. I would actually feel sorry for him. but I don’t because he’s just a cocky asshole, and on top of everything he hates Shane with a passion. I came back home at eleven and saw Cherie’s car parked outside and I sigh…No more sitting on math with Shane all to myself, no lunch with Shane….I go to my room and drift off to sleep. 

      Jenny came back from Ohio happy and content with herself. I told her that ‘we’ met Moira’s half sister. And Al started questioning about who ‘we’ are….and what not. I try to duck from the questions as possible avoiding the parts of me spending time with Shane. Alice and Dana actually gets along with Shane pretty well. Shane came with us to Dana’s games one of these days. I was busy with the Cheering stuff. I saw Shane and Al sitting on the bleachers. Alice was blabbering on the on and Shane was smiling and looking at me and occasionally at Dana playing. It made my ears hot just feeling her looking at me. From that time on Al is suspecting us and trying to investigate if there’s something going on with us. 

     This week went off pretty fast the teachers didn’t give us a lot of homework due to the thanksgiving. Its a 4 day weekend. The weekend starts from thursday. I was coming out of the bathroom when I saw Shane strolling on the hallways in the middle of a period. 

 Carmen:"Hey Shane what are you doing outside of class?"

 Shane:"NOthing really just got bored, can’t concentrate"

 Carmen:"Come on I will walk to back to class" I take her hand and walk with her to her class and then go back to my class. 

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 On thanksgiving my whole family comes over. And its a lot of work. but We all help out mami with the food and everything. I know Alice is spending Thanksgiving with Dana and so is Jenny because Dana’s parents does it real big. I would go with them but this family get together is really important for me! I love my family. I wonder what Shane is doing. Their whole house is dark. I know that Cherie is gone I don’t know where! I go to my room to change into a better dress. And I see Shane sitting with her head between her knees in front of the lily plant that she planted on the backyard. My heart breaks just to see Shane like that. I feel for her! but I am thankful that at least she’s not getting drunk at some bar or having sex with random girls or worse getting beat up by thugs. I decide to ask her to have dinner with my family. So I go downstairs. 

 But my mami had already has something in her mind. 

 -"Carmencita why don’t you invite that skinny boy who works nextdoor, I see him sitting in the garden"- 

 Carmen: "mami she’s a girl, she just dresses differently" I don’t wait for a response and I run to invite Shane. 

 I tiptoed in Cherie’s house and onto the backyard where Shane’s sitting and put my arms around her from the back. But the response was unexpected. Shane aggressively turned around and pinned me against the ground and hovered over me. Her eyes were dark and wolf-like, I can see the tears that . I have never seen this side of Shane.