Life like this…

A couple of days had passed. Tina was in her bedroom and was off the night. She was graduating the next day as a certified medical assistant. To some they saw it as a big accomplishment. To Tina, it was a waste of time and money. The amount of debt that school could add to your credit score. There was no need to cry over spilled milk. Everest was water beneath a bridge. Not too many of her friends got jobs. Yet, maybe two out of a medical assistant class of 75. The ratio is bad. Very bad. But, she managed to get high honors and she was apart of the student ambassador union. Forever an igniter. 

As she lay in bed she thought of Bette. Their last fight was to the point where she felt they would never talk again. Maybe a hi and a goodbye if seen in the street. But, it would never be anything more than that. Bette’s attitude and jealousy and communication is what pushed them apart. You have to be able to trust. You have to be able to express yourself. You have to be able to allow people to come and go as they please. I mean, not in a disrespectful manner, but ,who doesn’t like to hang out with their friends? Life is about building relations and enjoying some entertainment every now and again.

She picks up the phone and opens the contacts tab. There was Bette’s name and number. She thought about what she was doing? She thought about what she was wearing? She thought about if she was thinking about her? Her curiosity made her want to dial her number private, just to hear the sound of her voice. To know in some way that she was ok. But, she couldn’t pull herself to call. As much as she wanted to, she couldn’t do it. She took one last look at Bette’s number, tossed the phone on the dresser, and turned the tv on and watched bad girls club. She even had a glass of wine.

That present moment and time, she thought of her old buddy, ONeil. It’s been over a year since they last spoke. The last time they spoke he gave her an altermadum. Either, she be his girl or else be nothing at all. So, Tina never called him again. She stopped thinking of him. She had flashbacks through time when they used to hang out. The amount of fun they would have. He was even around for the worst. Like, when Tina’s asthma acted up and she needed to go to the hospital. He was there. Even when his family had events like birthdays and holidays–she was there for him too. She didn’t know that his feelings ran that deep for her. He played it all so well.