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It’s the first day of school. We are living together for three days now and it’s going good. The house is almost okay. Only a few boxes need to be unpacked. Bette and I are very happy chairing a room. We have a blast together but I’m getting scared… of myself. I react so different when I’m with Bette. I know her for about, what, 6-7 weeks? And I have the feeling I can’t be without her anymore. I adore her smile, her touch, her lips, her arms around me, her strength, the way she moves, the sound of her voice, the way she looks when she has just woken up, how she licks her lips unconsciously when she is nerves, … everything and I don’t know what to do. I think I’m having a crush on her and I need someone to talk to. I look at the clock, its 3AM. I look at Bette sleeping and I smile, she looks so beautiful. I kiss her on her head and I walk out of our room and knock softly on Helena’s door. I walk in and I see my sister looking at me with a puzzled look.

I: Can I talk to you?

Helena: In the middle of the night?

I: Please, I need to tell you something.

She sits up and rubs her eyes.

Helena: Okay, spill it.

I sit on her bed and look at my hands lying in my lap.

I: I think… I’m having… I’m having a crush… On Bette.

I look up and see Helena smile at me.

I: It’s not funny Helena.

Helena: I know, I just knew it all along.

I: What do I need to do?

Helena: Are you just having a crush are, are you in love?

I: I don’t know, sis.

Helena: Do you want to be with her all the time? (I nod) Do you think about her every awake second of the day? (I nod)  Do you want to protect her? (I nod) Is she perfect in your eyes? (I nod)  Do you feel like you’re only alive when she is with you? (I nod) Do you already miss her when she is just going to the toilet or something? (I nod)  Then I think you are in love, Tina.