"I don’t know if I can do that Bette. I think I’ve heard all that you’ve got say. And quite frankly its not fucking good enough". I felt the anger in her voice, it was something at least.

I pleaded "Just name the place and time and I’ll be there, it will be all on your terms Tina. Please, as I promised you I won’t bother you again after this if that what you want". I swallowed hard, my mind felt like a maze and I was stuck right in the middle no where apparent to reaching the goal.

She couldn’t even look at me, that pain stung worst than being beat upon and being hospitalised. I should know from the past I’ve had. I broke her, and I had to admit that I needed her she was me, she was everything that cursed through my blood. She stood there anticipating what I had just said but you could tell from the crinkle in her forehead she was still upset. She continued, "Look Bette I don’t know I really don’t want to hear anything you’ve got to say, you hurt me worse than anyone in my life and you and I both know I’ve had my fair share of hurt." Tina’s words were dripping with sadness; her hazel eyes were glazed and I knew mine were this is the longest I’d been able to talk to her without someone pushing me away.

"I know you don’t owe me anything Tee, but I’m begging you just 5minutes of your time. And then you don’t have to see me if that’s what you want". I spoke softly; my body crushing as I looked at the woman before me who I could no longer touch, hold or push away the tears. I didn’t have any right to anymore.

"I’ll think about it, right now I’m not in the right frame of mind to even be in the vicinity of where you’re it still hurts too much. My wounds are fresh and you make it hard for them to heal." I heard her sigh deeply as I watched intensely as I realised she was fighting underlying tears. The realisation of how truthful Tina was being brought to light of how much I’d broke her heart. She was a mess; but a beautiful one at that if I could take it all back and restart over I would so I didn’t have to see her like this. I’d do anything.