“I need to see you, i’m at rubies, come meet me, please cat I need to tell you something x x” I look at my watch, its noon, taking a sip of the offending liquid as I stand up I screw my nose up and make a mental note never to come here again, hurriedly I grab my bag and leave the café. Hailing a taxi outside I jump in breathless “rubies please” I say brightly when the taxi driver asks and I relax into the seat and smile, my phone bleeps again “where are you, im getting worried? I haven’t heard from you, I get off work at 6 can we go for a drink?” Its Sam, I read it but don’t fully take it in, haven’t thought that far ahead, I feel so bad for lying to her but I have other things to think about now. I type a half hearted reply about being busy and wanting an early night and switch my phone off. Taking a compact from my bag I give myself the once over, I don’t know if I like the person ive become, I know what its like to be hurt like this I know I shouldn’t, but I cant help how Frankie makes me feel.

My heart skips a beat as I look around and see her in a private booth in the corner, determined not to show how she has messed me up I walk over and sit down. God she looks so good. “What do you want Frankie?” I say im my most authoritive tone. She smiles and looks at her beer “you always did remind me of a school teacher you know that?” the comment catches me off guard and I smile shyly “I want to tell you something” she says not looking at me but peeling the label from her beer. “Here goes” I think, “please please let her say she loves me” I hold my breath and look away nervously. “look, lastnight was a mistake, it shouldn’t have happened, we need to move on, im with Sadie, your with Sam lets just pretend it didn’t happen, I cant go back there cat, I just cant go through that again.” She says quietly. Tears well in my eyes as the enormity sinks in, she has used me again “why do you do this Frankie? Why do you put me through this shit? I knew this would happen, I let you in and you did it again. Am I just a fuck to you? You waltz back into my life and fuck it all up and expect me to be ok with that? I hiss as the tears stream down my cheeks, I run to the bathroom and break my heart, she comes in and I turn away, ashamed that I have let her upset me so much “leave me alone Frankie I cant take any more shit, I thought you loved me, I thought you actually cared about me, I thought you were going to tell me you loved me” I pause “I wanted you to say you love me” I reiterate turning round to face her “because I love you” she stands there looking at me for what feels like an eternity then moves in, her hand on the back of my neck she kisses me hard, I feel her other hand around my waist as she pulls me so close I feel her hips on mine.

I hold onto the sink for support as my knees go weak at her touch. I feel her hand wander up my back, it feels so good. Her hand wanders over my breasts gently brushing my nipples and down to the buttons’ on my jeans, I lean back and gasp as she slowly undoes the buttons and kisses my neck, she slides her hand in gently and I close my eyes, her touch is like electricity and I can feel myself getting hot. She sinks to her knees and I tremble as she kisses my stomach. I look down as she looks up at me while running her tongue up to my naval, I see that wild look in her eyes the look that makes me wet, that look ive missed. She kisses my hips, hands on my waist pulling me close to her mouth. I look in the mirrors that line the walls and watch as she traces my underwear with her tongue. I close my eyes and place my hand on her head encouraging her to go lower, I cant think anymore, I dont want to think, i just want to be here with her “its alaways been you frankie” i breath………”always.”