Cat was shocked but there was something else she felt almost happy because for the first time she had unhinged Sam’s defences.

She heard Sam’s last words “I have to go” and then nothing else.

And now after 30 days she knows two things

First of all she doesn’t love Frankie; their story began and ended that damned night. Frankie was… Frankie and nothing could change her. She went to bed with Frankie because she loved the young Frankie, her  best friend and she want to make love with her. But that Frankie exists only in Cat’s memories and the new Frankie was too crazy to love her.

On the contrary she loves Sam from the deep of her heart and she wants Sam back home to her.

But all this times there was a question she hasn’t been able to respond “Why I have spoken?”

But this Sunday morning her mind is clear and finally she understands.

Sam was the perfect girlfriend; she looked in Cat’s eyes and understood how she feels, she did always the right thing and said always the right words. And Cat? She looked in Sam’s eyes and could not tell if she was happy or not; except when they made love, it was the only time when Sam let go completely. Cat constantly moaned about everything, even Sam’s work. For the anxious and nervous Cat the copper was too perfect, she was like a goddess: unreachable. So Cat told the truth just for hurting her and sow her lover loose control; no more goddess but woman.

And now? In a move she destroyed Sam and their relationship… a very good work.

But today Cat has decided to win back Sam love, to explain everything to her ex girlfriend hoping she can understand and forgive Cat and hug, smile and kiss her. “If she still loves me” a flash in Cat’s mind “no I don’t want to think so, I know she still loves me”.

She decide to call Sam, she needs to hear her voice, she feels something in her heart: a pain and a hope, she can’t wait. Cat knows Sam never answer to the mobile when she’ll see her name and damn she don’t know where she lives now. So the only thing to do is calling at the police station. “Is Sam at work today?” Cat remembers a sheet with Sam’s shift; once it was on the fridge “just below the words Sam loves Cat” but now?  “I must find it; it’s probably in a drawer”. Cat spend an hour searching it and finally she find it in a jacket Sam forgot in the wardrobe. Cat looks at the shift and smile “it’s a sign” she think “Sam is at work now”. And panic takes hold of her “what I can say when she answer?” “Hello Sam how are you? I love you, you love me forgive everything and came back to me”. It’s not so simple she needs to prepare the conversation, she must thinks all the Sam’s possible  questions and give the right answer. So Cat sits on the sofa and begins to think and write till everything is perfect (at her eyes). “I’m ready now”.

 She picks up the prone….and puts the phone down “I’m too nervous”, her hands are trembling; she take a long long breath and dials.

The phone rings one… two… three times, her heart pounding, and finally Cat hear Sam’s voice

“DS Samantha Murray, how can I help you?”

“Hi Sam, I’m Cat” shakily

Silence on the other side of the receiver.