-What Can I Say…I’m unpredictable…but there’s logic to my madness!-

So, it was about eight in the morning when I woke up at the hotel, and Ashley had been in the hospital for two days and one night now on her own…

I drove to the hospital and got there around eight thirty, when I went into Ashley’s room, I just shut the door quietly

“you think you’re so sneaky…” I heard Ashley say in the background

“I didn’t think you’d be awake this early…” I said smiling at her

“spence…I can’t sleep on my own anyways…you think I’d be able to sleep in a hospital?” she said making me laugh a little “plus I missed you…” she said making my smile then I went over to her and kissed her lightly on her lips

“hey I have a confession to make…” I told her

“uh oh…” she said “…what’d you do…”

“the night I brought you here…I said I was your girlfriend…”

“ok…then be my girlfriend” she said smiling

“ash…I have a girlfriend of my own…” I told her and her smile faded

“right…how’s that going by the way?”

“good I guess…I haven’t talked to her in the past few days…I’ve been to worried about you…”

“ok…so if I’m the one on your mind don’t you think that means a little something?” she asked

“here’s the thing ash…what happens when you get out of here? I mean I go back to Ohio in three days…and I know you’re going to want to try this new life of yours by yourself…” I told her then she looked away “see…you know it’s true, you can’t even look at me…” I said then she turned her head

“Spencer…”

“I mean where do I fit in that plan?” I asked her “don’t get me wrong I want to fit in, but can you blame me if I’m a little scared?”

“look the last time was different…” she started then I interrupted her

“Ashley you’re diabetic! That’s a little more intense than the last time! I dealt with you when you were giving yourself five shots a week tops, this time it’s fourteen! Do you realize that? Fourteen ash…” I told her

“I get it ok! I’ve been going through this for two fucking days now! I need you in my life Spencer! I cant leave you again…I wouldn’t be able to deal with it…” she told me

“then why the first time?”

“it was complicated and I had a lot of decisions to make…this time they were made for me and I’m sorry ok? breaking up with you was the worst mistake I’ve ever made…and now you have a girlfriend and you love her…”

“I don’t love her…” I told her

“yes you do…I see it in your eyes spence…” she said sitting up in her bed

“not like you though…”

“what?”

“I don’t love her like I love you…”

“you know how I feel ok? you know I’m in love with you…and yeah it sucks I lost my relationship with Blaire, but at least I lost it because of you…because I love you and I can’t say it enough…” she told me “and clearly not enough for you to stay…”

“I’m not leaving school for you Ashley…I’m sorry, but I cant…and it had nothing to do with Carmen…it’s just college is all I can depend on…”

“you can depend on me…” she said

“no…depending on you ended a while ago…” I told her

“what’s that supposed to mean?” she asked

“it means that I can fall for you Ashley…but I just don’t know if you catch me…and isn’t that was true love is supposed to be? If I fall you catch me, and if you fall I’m right there to catch you?”

“Spencer this isn’t fair…”

“yes it is…you had a choice…you had a choice between drugs and me, then you had a choice between our relationship and your life…and both times…I lost…” I told her “I don’t think I can go through that again…”

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