It’s been a week since that night I cried in Allie’s arms. I don’t think I stopped till I fell asleep. The next day I just stayed in bed crying on and off.

Ashley called that day at least thirty times until Allie finally answered telling her not to call anymore that I needed time. Allie was unusually kind to her maybe that’s why she actually listened I haven’t talked or seen her since.

Allie has been bugging me the last two day trying to get me to go out tonight. She wanted to go see Tyler play. They made up after he told her, he had no clue that they were playing that party. He apologized to me like ten times I kept saying it was ok but Allie was the one who as really pissed I knew it wasn’t his fault. Ashley had a thing with not giving people too much information about things.

Here I am lying on the bed staring at the same ceiling I have been staring at for the last week. Allie is the one who is getting ready she’s not all what to wear like I always was but she is still spinning in the mirror admiring herself.

“You’re acting like a hermit, Spence. You need to get over her already move on” Allie said putting a final shade of black polish on her nails.

“And you are acting like such a girl!” I said turning smiling at her

“Funny” she said throwing a cotton swab at me

“No seriously Spence this is unhealthy, I mean I know you love her and all but either get over it or get back on it!” She spoke in between blowing on her fingers

“I know ok I know…But I just need some time and I definitely don’t want to see her on her turf.” I turned my head back toward the little tiger that I have imagined is designed on my ceiling.

“Ok I guess it is her turf if that’s what you are calling it, and I know she has like this power over you, but come on Be a woman flaunt your shit.” She came and laid down next to me.