I see myself as a rational person, I can hold in my anger very well. Now don’t get me wrong I do fly off the handle sometimes but I mostly have that happen around my brother. He can get to me like no one else, make my skin crawl. My parents say it’s because we are one in the same.

Right now I stand here! I can fell my skin crawling and my brain is talking to me telling me all these things that I know aren’t true, but I can’t help but fall into the trap. It’s a trap of jealousy mixed with deceit. All the power in my body goes straight to my hands and I start shaking not from the anger but from the shock of it.

Ashley was right here in front of me embracing another woman comforting her. I should walk away but I can’t she already seen me. I watched her say something to Kate then start to run towards me.

“Spencer this is not what it looks like, I mean it is but it’s not just let me explain” she said to me out of breath and desperate

“I can’t talk to you, all these lies Ashley I don’t even know you” I said to her trying to refrain from crying   

She stepped closer to me trying to comfort me like she was Kate. I jumped back out of here reach. She tried again

“Stop you can’t touch me” she finally stopped

“Spencer please just go back to the dorm I will meet you there”

“Why is she that important to you that you can’t go now with me?”

“No she just needs someone now and I feel…”

“Guilty because you did this, whatever Ashley!” I say walking away

“Spencer stop!” She says grabbing my arm

“What Ashley you can’t fix this not this time, no I Love Yous can fix this” I was yelling actually I was crying as I was yelling.

I think I realized now that it is over all those years all the time spent on one person gone.

“Please don’t cry Spencer just let me take you back to your room” she slid her arm around my waist and I let her. I didn’t want to lose her, and this her taking me back to my room meant she would be away from this bitch.