Ashley drove. And drove. And drove. She didn’t know where she was going or what she was doing. ‘God I can’t believe i left her behind like that.’ Ashley thought. Her sad, distant eyes focused on the road, so her thoughts couldn’t distract her any longer. Ashley knew she wasn’t the best at relationships, and this fear was blinding her. Ashley had left all the girls she had been with after she got them into bed. After what happened with Cameron, all she wanted to do was fuck the pain away. In some sick, strange way it numbed that pain until, for awhile, she thought it was gone. But after her encounter with Spencer it all came flooding back. Eyes meeting, bodies touching, their souls feeding off one another. Ashley wiped away a small tear that had cascaded down her cheek. Cameron had been her everything, her existence, her one source of true happiness. Ashley knew it was coming. The memory that burned her the most. She gripped the steering wheel hard, trying to push the memory back into her subconcious. But it came:

"Cameron!", Ashley yelled suprised. Cameron looked up out from the middle of some girl’s legs. Ashley started to cry, "What the hell are you doing with her?" "Ash, baby, wait I can explain!", Cameron said. Ashley turned on her heel and headed for the door. "No, please wait." Cameron grabbed Ashley’s wrist. Ashley turned around to face her, and smacked her right across the face. Ashley didn’t wait for the girl’s reaction, and continued out the door.

That was the last girl Ashley remembered truly caring for. Cameron had ripped something out of Ashley she couldn’t replace. Ashley suddenly realized she had somehow ended up at her house. She turned off her car, and headed inside. Once in her room, she flopped down on her bed, and soon fell asleep. But her sleep was not peaceful. In her dream, she stood in the middle of an empty room. She looked around and Spencer was there, standing a few feet away. "Spencer!", Ashley called out happily. Ashley headed towards Spencer, and then Cameron appeared out of the shadows holding Spencer from behind, resting her head on Spencer’s shoulder. Ashley abruptly stopped and crumpled to the floor, as Cameron and Spencer faded back into the shadows. "NO!", Ashley awoke from her dream with sweat dripping down her forehead. She released the sheets from her tight grip, and reached out for her glasses putting them back on. ‘I can’t let my fear get to me, I have to overcome it, or I may lose Spencer to it forever.’ Ashley reached for her keys determined to start anew.