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I look over at her and smile. “Don’t move..”, I said crawling across and then leaning over Ashley. I felt her breath hitch when my torso came into contact with her own. I opened my bag that was sitting on the table behind Ashley and pulled out my sketchbook and a pencil. I sat back down, leaning against the arm of the couch again. I began drawing, my hand moving gracefully across the paper. I noticed that out of the corner of her eye Ashley was watching me work, I knew I had that look of intensity in my eyes that I always get in my eyes when I work. Ashley swallowed the lump that I guess had suddenly formed in her throat. I leaned up, tilting my head a bit. Moving in closer I brought a hand up and tucked a loose curl that had fallen behind her ear. “Beautiful..”, I murmured softly in awe of the way the light played so beautifully across Ashley’s cheek. Ashley turned her face slowly and looked deep into my eyes. My breath hitched, “I told you not to move.”, I whispered. Ashley brought her hand up and cupped my cheek, bringing her lips softly to my own. The sketchbook fell to the floor as my hands found a place gripping her hips. She ran her tongue over my bottom lip, instantly I granted her access. I squeezed at her hips as her tongue caresses mine. The kiss went on for what seemed like an eternity, pure heaven. We both reluctantly pulled apart for much needed air. I pressed my forehead against hers, her eyes still closed as her fingertips gently ran across my cheek. My heart was beating a mile a minute, threatening to jump out.

I leaned in this time taking control of the kiss, I think I may have just completely lost it when Ashley moaned as I began to suck on her bottom lip, letting my teeth then graze over it almost painfully slow. Her hand found its way to the back of my neck, pulling me closer as the kiss continued. The kiss was not rushed, just slow and deep, making me feel almost light-headed. I used the tip my tongue to trace the outside of her lips and I felt her shutter beneath me. She tasted sweet like some sort of fruit, ummm coconut that’s it. I heard a muffled song come from behind her, though I did not break the kiss. There it was again..shit its my phone..I swear this person is dead! I reluctantly pulled back, making Ashley whimper at the lose as she tried to lean back towards my lips. There it is again, I guess she heard it this time because she opened her eyes. I leaned back over her, making her gasp again..oops I guess that wasn’t helping matters. I rolled my eyes as I looked at the caller id, Ashley leaned up and looked at it. She huffed as she leaned forward throwing herself onto my shoulder dramatically. It was so adorable I had to fight to stifle a laugh. Kyla always knew exactly how to ruin moment..Iswear it should be her major instead of dance! I finally, let the ringing get the best of me and answered it. “Hey, yeah. I’ll be right down..okay, yeah..see you in a second.”, I said flipping it shut. Then my eyes widened a bit, I was just making out with Ashley..I mean really making out with her. We had never really done anything that heavy..oh shit…fuck! What if Kyla hadn’t called..would we have..NO NO NO! I had to get out of here now..Kyla may have just saved my ass! I quickly just shot up off the couch as ran around throwing my things in my bag like a crazy person. I looked over at Ashley and I saw a mixture of confusion and what looked like almost sadness in her eyes. It was almost like she was reading me or something. “I have to go.”, I said stopping in front of her, then watching as she then stood up. She tried to smile but, it didn’t reach her eyes, she leaned forward to kiss me and I quickly turned so she would just hit my cheek. As I turned I could have swore I her groan, I know I upset her with that one I think. I quickly made my way to the elevator and pulled the door closed. I think it was the look in Ashley’s eyes as I closed it that almost made me want to cry, she looked so sad..disappointed even. I sighed as I slammed my back against the elevator wall as it began to move. I was so confused..so frustrated with myself! How could I let this happen? How could I let her get so close? Ughh…fuck! What was the matter with me, have I not learned anything from my stupid past?