Chapter 1.1 – What Just Happened – Spencer’s POV

I can’t remember ever being as nervous as I am now.

‘It shouldn’t be this way,’ I think, ‘this is Ashley. She’s your best friend. It’s just Ashley. Breathe.’

I take a deep breath, and let myself into the her house with the extra key that she had given me months before.

“For emergencies,” she had explained, “or just incase you need to escape for awhile.”

As soon as I am inside the door I put in the code for the security system. I can’t help but grin as I remember that part of the conversation.

“Mom and I have separate codes. I think that the only reason she did that was to make sure that she could blame me if someone broke in using my code.”

When she handed me the piece of paper with the code written on it I just stared at it blankly for a second. When I looked back at her our eyes met for a second before she looked away…the code was my birthday.

I moved to the stairs as quietly as possible. I really want to surprise her. I stop as I reach her bedroom door. I’m beginning to doubt myself again. All of the things that have been stopping from telling her how I feel flitter through my mind again, one at a time, but I push them all away.

‘All I have to do is see her, and I’ll know. All I have to do is see her, and I’ll feel safe again.’

I raise my hand to the door and knock three times, then wait. It doesn’t take her long to answer the door. She see me and I watch as her face lights up. She reaches forward and takes my hands. My nerves are gone; replaced by a light sense of euphoria. She leads me into her room, and I follow without a second thought. I never let my eyes leave hers, and neither of us speaks a word. We don’t need to. She pulls me backward, and then she stops and leans back against her couch. She pulls me closer, and my stomach flutters. She pushes a few strands of hair behind my ear and lets her palm linger there. Her other hand grasps mine for a second before resting on my hip. She leans forward and I let my eyes drift closed. My breathe mixes with her for just a second before her lips brush against mine. When I feel her lips close around my bottom lip I just melt. I relax into her, and in that second I decide to just let it happen. I let everything go…all of my fears…doubts…everything. The kiss only lasts for a few seconds. She pulls away just an inch or so. Our eyes meet again and then she moves away from the couch and pulls me over to her bed. She sits down, and I hesitate for a second before following her. We sit close. Our legs touching. She leans forward again, and I meet her halfway. This kiss is more intense and less timid. I close my eyes again, but my nerves are starting to return.

‘How far is this going to go? How far do I want it to go? What is she expecting?’

And finally…

‘What should I do?’

AUTHOR’S NOTE: I have the next chapter written (it is NC-17), but I’ll only post it after I get 3 comments. Let me know if I should just delete it…Thank you.