Buffy’s p.o.v

Faith felt uncomfortable, edgy while Willow was talking. Then again I think if Willow hadn’t come in when she did we might have done something really bad. Sure we would both enjoy it but unlike me Faith had a lot more to lose this time. I wouldn’t have stopped her if she had taken me right there and then. So thank god for Willow. Truth is I couldn’t let Faith take all the blame either; it was me giving out the ‘go’ signals to her. Faith has tried so hard over the years to make up for her mistakes, and I used her guilt over the past to get what I wanted, I didn’t want Faith long term; I couldn’t love her and trust her the way Lara does. Too much has happened for us to ever be that honest and open, I cant give Faith what she needs, what she deserves, and that is simply to be loved.

She stood there opposite me her jaw nearly hitting the floor when Willow said her piece and left. I could see the hurt and guilt inside her, a little black ball of darkness growing all over again.

I said the only thing I could; “Faith, I’m sorry.” She kind of looked at me weird but never spoke. I stood and moved over too her, looking her in the eye. Repeating my apology I explained to her all the things I felt inside and why we couldn’t do what we did ever again. She listened intently, her eyes began to slowly fill as I told her she would always have a place in my heart, the past has gone and we can’t change it but today and everyday from now we would be friends, we would be family, and she would be like a sister to me. She turned her head away from me and coughed.

She turned back to face me and I felt the darkness inside her disappear, she smiled the sweetest smile I’ve ever seen.

“Thanks.”

“My pleasure.”  Was my reply, then we were rolling around on the floor laughing.

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Faith’s p.o.v

“Really… I seem to remember having some pleasure from our little experiment myself.”

Her eyes lit up “Really.”

“Yeah really B.”

“I sure wish we thought of doing that a few years ago.”

“Hell yeah, but coulda, woulda, shoulda. Anyways I like things just how they turned out.”

“Me too.”

I gotta hand it to her she always knows how to make things right. Guess that’s what makes her the best. We still got some of the old sexual tension going on now and again, but we get through it no problems now. Lara introduced her to Alex, one of her old fuck buddies. Her and B are having a great time, and the double dating has its bonuses too.

I think I died and this is heaven.