I remember getting dropped off by my dad at Ashley’s. It was pouring rain outside so I quickly ran to her door and began ringing the doorbell anxiously until she finally opened it.

“Hey” she said happily grabbing me and pulling me inside

“Way to leave me out there for an hour!”

“Okay no, I nearly fell down the stairs running just to open the door so Shh”

“Uh-huh…wait where’s Maggie?”

“She drove down to get some groceries”

“Groceries? You have more than enough food”

“Don’t judge us Carlin” she says trying to sound serious “Do you want anything to drink?”

“No, I’m okay, I just wanted to talk to you about what happened… you know the…”

“Kiss?” she finishes off my sentence “I’ve been thinking about it too”

“It was amazing Ash, I told you everything I felt… it was…”

“Perfect” she tells me

I look up into her eyes and can immediately tell she honestly means what she’s saying

“But what is everyone going to say?”I tell her

“We don’t have to tell anyone Spence”

“I know but…”          

“No buts about it” she tells me “Look Spence, you’re my best friend I wouldn’t ever let anything get in the way of that. I know how you’re family is and I wouldn’t ever want anything to hurt you. Just because we kissed doesn’t mean we have to shout it out to the world. So our kiss will be our secret”

“But what if I don’t want it to be a secret?”

“For now I think this our safest bet. Plus we’ve seen how our friends ‘date’ then break-up and don’t speak to each other ever again. You want that to be us?”

“No…”

“Then let’s be what we’ve always been, best friends. I don’t want to risk something going wrong with us and losing you. This way you also have a chance to meet someone and figure out what and who you want.”

I wanna be with you, I think to myself.

“Spence?”

“Okay Ash, It’ll be our secret”