She thwacked me in the ribs "Edward how can you be ashamed of something that hasn't even happened, Might never happen. Sometimes your so silly, now you need to start hunting with Bella, and stop acting so damn weird, no one has died. Oh and no more growling at Jasper."

   I shot her a look remembering all those vulgar thoughts he had running through his head. "You just tell him to stop thinking about Bella in such a red blooded manor, I think I liked it better when it was just blood lust." I sighed.

    "Ohh Edward you are far to sensitive." She giggled sending me her own images of Bella's cute bra and panties set she had given with a sinister little grin on her little pixie face.

    "Alice" I hissed and bit my lip God what am I thinking pushing that lovely creature away from me. I wanted Bella so badly it hurt, I even longed to look into her crimson eyes they sang to me, made me wanna do anything and everything to see them sparkle.

   When I came out of la la land I discovered Alice had left my room, I was glad I talked to my sisters they had a way of putting me in check and I needed it badly. Still I kept reliving Alice's vision.

   ~"You want me to be a Monster then Bella?" I exclaimed at the top of my lungs,I was ripping across the room pressing her up against the wall blood on her lips she was laughing I slapped her across he face. She sent me flying across the room.

    "What ever you like love," I was standing in her way with in seconds. I followed her gaze to a girl huddled in the corner, I leapt on the frightened woman. "but know this Bella you want a Monster, so I become one." with those vial words I pulled the girl to her feet by her hair and shuck my teeth into her. Discarding her lifeless body at my feet moments later Looking back into Bella's Gem stone eyes of red, with my own. ~

   I quivered deep down to my cold unbeating heart, what if that was what I was to become? Rose said I hated what I had become, but when I  look and paralleled myself to myself. The me I am beside the me in Alice's latest premonition I was grateful and happy to be the man I am. Good lord I am crazy, 1st there are 2 Bella's then 2 Rose's and now 2 of myself. I shook my head trying to get  grip.