I had no idea where I was running. I just needed to get away from that house. I was sure Edward would be right behind me but I didn’t care. I just needed to get away. That was too much. I had hurt Jacob. Edward knew how bad I felt about that. I loved Jacob. Not the same way or intensity that I loved Edward, but it was still love. Jacob had been there for me when I needed someone the most and look what I did.

Why didn’t they tell me? I was mad at all of them. Jacob should have said something to me. Edward shouldn’t have kept it from me. He was supposed to tell me everything that was going on. He promised me that and didn’t keep to it. My own love had lied to me. He couldn’t’ have been doing this for me. Alice had to have seen how badly this would have gone. And then there was Alice. She was my best friend or so I thought. She saw this and yet she refused to tell me? The very people I loved lied to me.

I was still running but now I was crying. I was so confused. I loved Edward and I needed him more than anything in the world, but I loved Jacob too and I wanted my best friend back.

I looked around me. I knew where I was. I had just crossed over the treaty line. If Edward was following me, he wouldn’t be able to anymore. I was running to Jacob without even thinking about it. Would Alice be able to see where I ran to? None of that mattered. How long had I been running for? Why did my body chose here? I was surprised my clumsiness hadn’t made me fall yet.

I was close to Jacob’s house. What was I going to say to him? I had to tell him how sorry I was. And that I did love him. I really did. He helped me through my time of need and I hurt him. He imprinted on you. You two were meant to be together. I couldn’t get Edwards words out of my head. Hearing him say the words over and over made me run faster. The faster I ran, the more I heard the voice. I was crying harder than I thought it was ever possible to cry.

When I was close enough to see the Black’s house, I stopped running. I was tired of running. I tried to walk towards the familiar house. My body refused to let me. I was much to tired and had no energy left. I felt my legs give out and me fall to the ground. I just laid there. I felt the way I had right after Edward had left me and Sam found me.

I managed to look up to see Jacob, MY Jacob, running towards me. “Bella, Bella are you okay? What’s wrong? What happened? BELLA!” Jacob screamed to me. I wanted to yell back to him. Telling him how sorry I was but I didn’t have the energy. Last thing I remember, I was being picked up and carried somewhere by someone. Then I passed out not knowing or caring who it was or where I was going.