“why uh…why are you waiting until now to tell me?”

“because I don’t know…”

“ok? I mean you’ve seen me with other girls before…why now? Why when I’m with Becca?” she asked

“it has absolutely nothing to do with Becca…I just, I don’t know, I guess it’s like the breaking point…I mean, you know me better than anyone else…you know what to say when I’m sad and you don’t let me run…” I told her “…I mean did…did you even feel anything when you saw me with other girls?” I asked a little skeptic about the possible answer

“um…I guess I did, I got upset when you spent more time with them, and then over the past year I realized we do talk different with each other…if I didn’t feel the same you think I would be here now? With you like this?” she said smiling

“you tell me…”

“is this the only way I can keep you in my life Ash?” she asked boldly

“what do you mean?”

“I guess I’m just afraid that if we aren’t together, then you wont be in my life like I need you to be…”

“…how exactly is it that you need me to be?” I asked her

“my best friend…”

“Spencer I don’t ever want to be out of your life, I mean…I wish we were together, and I guess things are just up in the air now…you know how I feel…that’s never going to change…I need you Spence…tell me you need me just a little bit too…” I said looking onto her eyes then she pulled me into her by my hands she was holding and mere seconds later our lips were locked together…with a kiss after a kiss after a kiss

“I do need you…” she said pulling away and looking into my eyes

“oh” I said then I blanked out for a minute

“what’s wrong?”

“did…we just kissed right? That wasn’t a dream?” I asked and she laughed at me and kissed me again “ok that time wasn’t a dream at all…” I said with my eyes still closed then I sat down in the sand and she sat next to me and rested her head on my shoulder