Flip the script!-(Through Ashley’s eyes now) Completed.Dec-29-07

I remember when Spencer and I came up with that 15 minute rule,sure we had came up with it because of what I did,but it reminded me of when we were happy with each other, this, this wasn’t happy. I don’t know what this is, but I couldn’t believe it had happened. Here I was confessing everything, admiting how terrible of a person I was, and after I’d assured her that I’d changed, when all along she’d gone and done something ten times as bad,with Kyla. Now I felt vulnerable and angry, none of the two emotions were new, one was tucked away so that I could preclude ever feeling it and the other had been expressed on numerous occasions. But I didn’t think I could feel both of them at once, it was too much to handle.

"Ashley,when I woke up this morning, and I wasn’t in your room,with your arms around me, with you spooning me,words can’t even explain how horrible I felt". I turned my head away, fuck her, I was still angry and hurt. She grabbed my chin and turned me towards her. "Fucking look at me Ashley, I know you’re pissed and hurt, and I’m sorry, but technically you did the same thing…" My head shot up, and all sad feelings dissapeared. "Fuck you Spencer! Yeh, I cheated on you,boo hoo, I’m so sorry, but it’s not like I went and fucked Glenn!" I was expecting her to lower her head,seeing that I was right.

Wrong. "Ashley, this isn’t about me sleeping with your sister it’s about both of us sleeping with someone else why we were still togethor!" She yelled it at me while swinging her arms in the air, a truely histronic performance. "Spencer, that is exactly what this is about!" I yelled back just as angry. "What the fuck Ashley, I thought you out of everyone would know that people need a second chance!" She stopped after she said that,realizing what she’d just done. "Right…" my voice cracked and was inaudible "…because I screw up all the time"

"Ashley that wasn’t what I…" It was apparent to both of us, exactly what she meant. "Spencer,just go…" I pointed to the door while looking at the ground, I couldn’t let her see any more tears,couldn’t dare let her be held accountable for anymore tears of mine."No, I’m tired of us just leaving everytime we have a problem!" wiping my tears I looked up at her. "How can you expect me to ever forget about this Spencer?" She stopped to think, I knew the answer to this obvious question though, she couldn’t expect that of me, it was asking too much. "I’m not asking for you to forget, I just want you to forgive me Ashley…please"