“It has everything to do with her!” I shouted. I hated getting like this as I felt more tears falling down my cheeks. I needed her to leave the library. Why couldn’t she just drop the friendship so I could completely erase her from my memories and my heart?

“It has to do with you and me. It always has.” Why did she have to say that?

“I’ve always been your last choice,” I began bitterly. “The other girls: Kelly, Brittany, Alice, and the list go on to every girl you “loved” before me. Did Kelly break your heart again? Did she walk away from you? Is that why you “love” me now? So I can offer you a shoulder to cry on?”

I began to sob uncontrollably; I couldn’t help it so many years and wasted tears for her. Ashley held me in her arms. She was rubbing my back to comfort me. It was one of the few times that Ashley comforted me. I tried to push Ashley away, but she wouldn’t allow me to. After a few minutes, Ashley was the one who pulled away from the hug.

“I think I’ve always loved you, alright?” said Ashley. “I’ve been a complete idiot to not see what’s been right in front of me the whole time.”

“No, it’s not alright for you to love me,” I stated. Ashley looked upset at my words, but for once I didn’t care and I didn’t want to be the one to console her. I was getting tired of comforting her.

I’ve wanted Ashley to say for so long that she loved me, but now I wanted nothing more, but her to take back those words. “You can’t say that to me right now. In fact, take it back!” Ashley looked dejected and I walked out of the library not really caring that no one took care of my post.

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I was watching the waves rolling and breaking against the sand as I watched the sun set. I had skipped school for the rest of the day. What good would it do me to stay in school when I wouldn’t be able to concentrate. Life is so unfair.

I would be grounded for the rest of my high school career, but my mind was focused on Ashley.