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    Spashback – (Chapter: Losing My Way)

    Story written on July 31, 2007 by queereye.
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    Story Shortlink: https://lesfan.com/?p=15438
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    Ashley’s rebuilding her life, and she wants Spencer in it. Spencer’s lost and Paige is stuck in the middle. But they’re all about to learn you never know what’s around the corner…

    Losing My Way

    It is breaking me down
    Watching the world spin round
    While my dreams fall down
    Is anybody out there?

    Can anybody out there hear me?
    ‘Cause I can’t seem to hear myself
    Can anybody out there see me?
    ‘Cause I can’t seem to see myself
    There’s got to be a heaven somewhere
    Can you save me from this hell?
    Can anybody out there feel me?
    ‘Cause I can’t seem to feel myself

    Losing my way
    Keep losing my way
    Can you help me find my way?
    Losing my way
    Keep losing my way
    Can you help me find my way?

    Oh my god please forgive me
    ‘Cause I know I’ve done some wrong in this life
    If I could do it all again
    Have just one more chance
    To take all those wrongs and make them right

     

    *****

    Spencer threw the book down onto the bed with frustration. She had been staring aimlessly at the same page for a good 15 minutes now and finally resigned herself to the fact that none of this information was going to imbed itself into her mind whether she wanted it to or not. She was simply not in the mood for studying. If she was being honest, she had not been able to get much study done over the past couple of months anyway. Everytime she had even so much as tried to read a book or write a paper, her mind had wandered and clouded itself with the stark image of the event that had taken place in this very house just over eight weeks ago.

    She got off the bed and began to gather up the messy pile of papers sprawled across the sheets. Crumpling them together carelessly, Spencer’s mind once again began to drift away to the one subject she knew she shouldn’t dwell on. The one thing that she knew would literally drive her crazy with worry and concern if she thought about it too much. But there it was again, marked indelibly in her minds eye, or more accurately, there she was. Ashley Davies. Former best friend, confidant, lover and now another faceless messed up individual at a rehab center.

    Spencer let out a sigh as she dumped her study material on the desk. She knew that Ashley was doing okay. They had shared a few brief phone calls over the first couple of weeks after she had gone to the center. Each time they spoke Ashley sounded lost and apologetic, which stung Spencer right to the core. She wished she could have reacted better when Ashley came round that night, but she just lost her way in a moment of madness. From the day they met, both girls knew that they had the ability to ignite that fire in one another; a fire that burned with rage, anger, jealousy and bitterness and unremittingly led to a huge argument.

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    1. wow i have never felt so much emotion surge through me all at once. the ending only shows spashley is ment to be. but i mean poor paige……dear lord continue….luv it

    4. Oh my god, you just totally made me cry!! Poor Spencer and Paige. While I wasn’t too happy that Spencer seemed so attached to Paige, I didn’t want her to die. That’s going to totally crush Spencer. That was so freaking sad. I loved Ashley’s confessions to Spencer about why she ran to Aiden. It made me feel better about the time Ashley spent with Aiden because I know Ashley didn’t choose Aiden because she loved him. She never loved him; it’s always been Spencer. And for some reason that makes me feel better. Ashley is a far better person than I am because I don’t see how she can stand Aiden in her life after everything he did to her. But good for her. Now I hope Kyla and baby will be okay. Ashley’s really gonna have to be there for Spencer. For once, Ash can’t be selfish and run away scared. It’s her time to step up and be there. I really hope they end up together. I love, love this story!

    5. holy jesus that was so intense. i can’t even describe how much i am freaing out right now, and honestly i wanted spencer to be with paige. pms. now.

    7. wow i have never felt so much emotion surge through me all at once. the ending only shows spashley is ment to be. but i mean poor paige……dear lord continue….luv it

    10. Oh my god, you just totally made me cry!! Poor Spencer and Paige. While I wasn’t too happy that Spencer seemed so attached to Paige, I didn’t want her to die. That’s going to totally crush Spencer. That was so freaking sad. I loved Ashley’s confessions to Spencer about why she ran to Aiden. It made me feel better about the time Ashley spent with Aiden because I know Ashley didn’t choose Aiden because she loved him. She never loved him; it’s always been Spencer. And for some reason that makes me feel better. Ashley is a far better person than I am because I don’t see how she can stand Aiden in her life after everything he did to her. But good for her. Now I hope Kyla and baby will be okay. Ashley’s really gonna have to be there for Spencer. For once, Ash can’t be selfish and run away scared. It’s her time to step up and be there. I really hope they end up together. I love, love this story!

    11. holy jesus that was so intense. i can’t even describe how much i am freaing out right now, and honestly i wanted spencer to be with paige. pms. now.

    13. OMG! That was the most intense scene I have ever read. I believe I’m in shock and every emotion imaginable is plaguing my heart. I feel so sad for Spencer losing the woman she loves, but I’m hoping Ashley will step up to the plate and help Spencer through this tragic event in her life. You are an amazing and highly talented writer! I love this story! PMS

    14. OMG! That was the most intense scene I have ever read. I believe I’m in shock and every emotion imaginable is plaguing my heart. I feel so sad for Spencer losing the woman she loves, but I’m hoping Ashley will step up to the plate and help Spencer through this tragic event in her life. You are an amazing and highly talented writer! I love this story! PMS

    15. okay tears, you have reduced me to a puddle, the way spencer was screaming the things she was saying felt so real and when paige said we’re not over i might just have to take a little break, killed me, god ash is going to have to do major damage control cuz spencer really did love paige….pms real soon

    16. okay tears, you have reduced me to a puddle, the way spencer was screaming the things she was saying felt so real and when paige said we’re not over i might just have to take a little break, killed me, god ash is going to have to do major damage control cuz spencer really did love paige….pms real soon

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