chapter 1: Tying up loose ends:

Spencers p.o.v

I am sitting in my bedroom where i have been for the last hour just thinking about how i’m going to break it of with alice, i know i have to do it for both of our sakes but it’s just hard. I am waiting for her to come by now. I’ve told her why i want her to come round, she seemed ok about the whole thing but i just don’t know. I told all of my friends that i was leaving in 2 a week and a half and none of them seemed to care. I don’t know weather to be upset or happy that i wont have an emotional goodbye.

*DING DONG*

That will be alice now. I know it is when my door opens my door and stands there waiting for me to speak.

"Hey" i say looking at her, i see sad eyes and immediatly feel guilty knowing that i have to end it for both of us.

"Hey spence, look i know why i’m here so can we just get it over with so i can go and carry on with my life" she says harshley.

"Look Alice it’s not my fault i have to move ok theres no reason we can’t be friends still?" it comes out as more of a question that a statement.

"I know it’s not your fault but it just hurts, i don’t see why we can’t still be together" ok she obviously isn’t understanding

"I wouldn’t want to put the pressure of a long distance relationship on us it will strain us to the point where we will end up hating eachother. We wouldnt want to be friends anymore. One of us no doubt would end up cheating" i say honestly.

"So you want to see other people thats great spencer" she said sarcastically "you know you said that the long distance would be the thing to break our friendship but no this is the breaker, goodbye spencer have a nice life" and with that she ran out of my door and out of the house. Spencer jumped on her bed and lay down before she knew it sleep was taking over her body.

"Spencer dinner" my dad yelled

"coming dad" i say pulling myself together i ran down the stairs and into the kitchen. "whats for dinner?"

"Well we have the famous Arthur Carlin spaghetti and meatball in my very own pasta sauce" my dad says proud of his cooking, did i mention hes an awesome cook.

"good i need all the carbs i can get after the day i’ve had today." i say sadly

"oh whats up honey?" my dad asked concerned

"me and alice broke up because i didn’t want to do the long distance thing and now she doesn’t want to even be friends with me." i take a breath "and what gets me is the fact that it’s probably not upsetting me the way it should you know?" he shakes his head yes so i continue."the spark wasn’t there, the passion wasn’t. People say that when you are in love that you should never want to be away from them and that you should need them around just so you can breathe properly, with alice it wasn’t like that, it was safe,good but safe. i feel better now thats off my chest now here comes the Arthur Carlin therepy session.

"Well honey maybe you stayed in the relationship because it was safe and it’s what people expected of you. We are moving to L.A in a week and a half and i’m sure there will be loads of girls waiting to snap you up. I’m not saying that you should sleep around or anything i’m just saying try dating other people, you have to bear in mind that you have only ever dated alice since you came out when we get to L.A i want you to step out of your comfort zone live a little spence you only get one chance."

I jumped up out of my seat at the dinner table and kissed my dad on the cheek. "I love you dad"

"i love you too sweetie"

Dinner went by quickly and i was lying in bed drifting in to a peaceful sleep thinkin about of everything my dad said to me at dinner. "I’m gonna date more when i get to L.A that is a resolution" i promised myself before i fell into a peaceful slumber.