I squeezed Lindsey’s hand, “Don’t worry, it’s okay.”

She nodded and I paid for the tickets.

Chapter 2

The ‘Bugman’

“Sara, do you have to work tonight?” Lindsey asked me while we were watching the tigers.

“No, it’s my night off because Janice and Marc are coming over tomorrow morning to pick Ryan up, remember. Do you want to rent a movie when we get home?”

“Can we see Harry Potter, please?”

“Sure we can, but haven’t I shown you that DVD yet, ‘cos I have it at my place, don’t tell me that I didn’t bring it over.”

“No you didn’t, you have it and you didn’t show me?”

We walked around the zoo for hours and I showed Ryan and Lindsey all the animals, and told them all the information that I could. Yes I admit I have watched National Geographic and Animal Planet too much on those lonely days when I couldn’t sleep. Something that I ain’t doing anymore, those small things show me how much I have changed in these past couple of months. I had given up on all those small habits. We came home ate breakfast with Lindsey and we would take Lindsey to school and then we would go to bed when we came home. I hadn’t seen my police scanner in months. It was still one of the things I kept at my place. But now I made up my mind.

Ryan’s face leaned against my shoulder and his arms where around my neck. He was sleeping in my arms when we walked towards the parking lot. I handed Lindsey the car keys and she opened the door. I sat Ryan in his car seat and he stirred a little.

Ryan woke up whilst I was driving, I was actually close to the CSI building. I decided that I might as well pay the guys and Catherine a visit. I dialed Grissom’s number. He picked up immediately.

“Hey Grissom, it’s me Sara. I have someone here with me who would like to see your spiders, is it okay to come over.”

I would take any chance to show Grissom what a great kid Ryan is, and Grissom’s spider collection might just be the thing that would accomplish that.