"You are so beautiful baby."  She says before she unties my bra.  She pulls it away, and I smile at her.  I can’t say anything now.  Words have long lost any meaning.

She rakes her fingernails down both sides of my body as she continues to run her tounge through the valley between my breast.  She begins to go more toward the right as she circles the base of my right breast with her tounge.  I’m breathing hard by now.  This feels so good.  With every circle around my breast, she gets closer to my nipple.  When she finally gets there, she licks over it once before taking it in her mouth.  I’m hit with a pleasure that before now I could only imagine.  My hands remain in the hair encouraging her to continue.  She runs her other hand to my left breast, and she massages it.  This feeling is building up in my body, and I’m not sure what it is.  After what seems like forever, she realeases from my breast, and she comes up to kiss me.  The kiss is eratic.  It goes everywhere, but it’s perfect.  Her hand is now at the top of my jeans as she slowly unbuttons my jeans.  A few minutes later they are off, and she is now laying beside me.  She runs her hand from my lower leg to my thigh.  She isn’t saying anything.  She is just looking at me.

"I wish I could tell you how beautiful you are Spence."  She smiles.  Again, the words want to come out, but they can’t.

"I love you."  She says again.  Even though she’s said it to me a million times that felt like the first time.

I just grab the back of the head, and I kiss her hard.  Minutes later, I’m completely exposed.  Naked. She kisses from my lips to right above the area where my private hairs begin.  Hairs that no one has ever seen but me.  She runs her fingers through my folds, and I know I’m wet.  I want her to bad.  She is now resting between my legs.  Her tounge is running down my sides, and she is bitting at the skin there.  Seconds later, she runs her tounge the length of my folds, and I gasp.  Jolts of pleasure shoot through my body as sweat drips down.  She begins to circle my clit with her tounge, and I pull her hair gently.  Before I realize it, I’m moaning like a mad person.  Her tounge is everywhere on me, and I feel like I’m going to wake up from this any second.  After a few more minutes of the most pleasue I’ve ever experienced, her lips are attached to mine.  My center immediately misses the contact until she again runs her fingers through my folds.  Slowly, she enters me with one finger.  She doesn’t move.  She looks to see my reaction.  It doesn’t hurt.  I don’t think she could ever do anything to hurt me.  She begins to move it slowly, and my hips begin to meet her movements.  After a few minutes we’ve formed a comfortable yet slow pace.  I need more.

"More baby."  I whisper out, and she smiles.  She moves faster, but it isn’t enough.  Almost as if she can read my mind, she inserts another finger.  Pain runs through my body, but it’s a good kind of pain.  She’s moving in and out of me.  I feel her fingers curve, and I am met with the best pleasure I’ve ever experienced in my life.  My body starts to convulse, and I don’t know what’s happening.  I close my eyes tight, and I see stars shooting through the darkness.  I fall back onto the bed, and she climbs up my body still kissing every bit of skin.  I now realise that she is wearing all of her clothes.

"Baby, that was perfect."  I say realizing that I just had my orgasm.

"You’re perfect."  She smiles.

I snuggle my naked body into her pajama clad body.  This is the first time I’ve realised that she has all her clothes on.

"Baby, I’m sorry."  I say, and she looks hurt.

"About what?  You don’t regret this do you Spence?"  She asks.  Way to kill the moment.

"No, not at all.  It’s just, you are still…"  I can’t say it so I just point to her clothes.

"No.  I don’t need you to touch me for me to feel better.  That orgasm I just had was the most intense one I’ve ever had.  You make me feel like that."  Ashley smiles again.

"I love you."  I say.

"I love you too."

Then, I drift off to dreamland.

I remember ever single detail about that night.  I remember thinking that there was no way in the world that Ashley would ever hurt me.  I guess I was wrong.  I hurt her too though, and I can’t forget that.  Something has to happen here.  I can’t hurt like this forever.