The escape and The escape…in the mirror

Prolog

When I was still a small girl, I dreamt of finding the quite big love. I thought, I would have a family, as well as ours was one, with an affectionate husband, a few children, a house and a garden in which the dogs romped around during a nice summer day and everything had her fun.

When I, Bette Porter, a child was, my big sister Kit took me sometimes to her appearances. I stood below in the gigantic stage and watched her up there and I always thought, This is my sister and I am so proud of them! ' I wanted to become always in such a way, like they, they was my big model. She was strong and had a miraculous voice and all people admired them for what she did. She has done without knowing it so to many people courage to believe in herself and to trust in the fact that one can reach everything, what one to itself undreamed if one wants it only enough.

As a Mom died it became clear to me very fast that I was now the woman in the house, because Kit was on the move a lot and Daddy needed me the more. At that time I have learnt what indicated to be strong and before I understood what happened there with me, I had already arisen, my life firmly controlled, own art gallery and my luck in quite a lot of hopeless women's relations in request. Well, now this sounds so easy, but thus this was not at all. I had already also some man's relations, but they were unfulfilled, I always knew that to me something was absent. So I acted what had learnt Porter to bed, even then: If for you is a little bit uneasy, change the cause! ' When I fallen in love then with a woman and had done my first nevertheless probably rather pitiful touch, respect search and erotic attempts, I knew what had released the uneasiness. So I have also not rum-experimented long, in the end, I knew yes what I wanted. Well, see you later … I had become just 34 and had finished my relationship with Alice and we were the best friends, however, …