soo its been a week since that amazing adorable perfect! night that I would never be able to forget!..everything its been fairytale-like except for a lil tiny problem..so here is a little fun fact um so lets just say ashley and I never umm been "alone together" aka made love … i know i know what that fuck am I waiting for!? shocking right.. seriously have you seen the girl! im surprise i havent like humped her while kissing her yet!…

dont get me wrong I been with guys before but not with girls and I admit it part of me is scared the relationship could change for the better or worse.. However whatever the answer is tonight seems like is going to be the night.. dinner movie then sleep over at her house.. gosh I feel like a virgin again.. there is something i would never that I would feel again.. 

So the dinner and movie went great Ashley is the sweetest girlfriend anyone could ever have Im so happy and lucky that she is in my life.. Now we are in her room just listening to slow romantic music and the only light comes from the vanilla scented candles that she had lit up

"Someone was planning to get lucky tonight"

" dont think I havent realized the teasing when you wear those skirts mmm"

" ah ha! jerk i knew it you just want to get in my pants! you are so drooling over me"

" come on Spence you know I love you no matter what.. even if it means ab.. abstinence.."

" Im only kidding I know that baby its.. its just that i dont know if im ready yet"

"Spency I only did this because i know its important to you and I wanted it to be special but please baby i dont want you to do something that you arent ready to do I love you way to much to pressure you into something like that"

" baby I love you soo much" I said with a tear falling down my face

" aw sweetie please there is no reason to cry we love each other and being here with you just together is a dream come true"

"This is the happiest I ever been in my life.. the way you look at me.. no one has ever looked at me that way"