FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK! once they left I went up to my room and started to rip everything apart this couldnt be it this wasnt happening why!!! I want to hate them I want to not be able to talk to them and just dont give a fuck about them but I cant they were the love of my life and my best friend

…the next couple of days were horrible full of headaches and pain I couldnt be more broken It feels like im lifeless i have no feelings no smiles no tears nothing just an empty body.. and empty me..

two weeks had gone by and Ashley and Kayla have been calling me none stop showing up at my door trying to talk to me but I cant.. I dont want to see them..

Late that night I couldnt sleep I kept thinking about Ashley.. they are together right now.. sleeping together feeling eachother close.. god spencer dont be so stupid just stop thinking stop! you dont want them in your life they hurt you so much be strong! it was then when I head a tap in my window wait a tap in my window? my room is upstairs!? "ASHLEY! What are you doing?! are you crazy you going to kill yourself!" I said opening my window letting her in "I’ll do anything to talk to you even if that means dying spencer please just listen to me dont push me away from your life i care about you" she had to be kidding me right?

"wow davies you got nerve! you say that you care! im sorry but thats bullshit! i felt so horrible like a piece shit for what I did to you and the funny thing is I never even really did anything to you.. you only saw what you though you saw! but all of that isnt half as bad! what you did to me is just soo soo.. please ashley I LOVED YOU SO MUCH why why! I knew something was going on thats why I ran that night at the pizzeria I saw you with Kayla!" I had so many things to say I was full of anger "what Spencer what are you talking about that night I met up with Kayla because she told me nothing happen between you and her she wanted us to be happy Spence she was trying to help you I was going to tell you to forgive me but you ran out… oh god spence I cant believe you though I would do that to you I love… I loved you!" she was going to say that she still love me but then she didnt is it possible for her to still love me? "well aparently you LOVE Kayla now so it doesnt fucking matter…thank you for breaking my heart more than once Ashley…"