her.. I was so drunk I didnt even make sense.. I couldnt think straight I had a full bottle of vodka my blood was all mixed up with alcohol and pain nothing made sense in my life reality was just some cheap bitch that keep slapping me on the face!.. I waitteed waittteddd foorr nnoothing yurrr leaaving leavinng mmee haanggin WHEEENN DIDDD YUUURR HEAARRT goo missssing Ashhhh whhyy whhhy!?I.. I looovvveee youuuu whhyy caanttt yuuu unndestannd thatt" "Spencer your drunk! why are you doing this to yourself! please baby this is stupid" "sssttuupidd Imm nootttt sssttuppid! no no youu youu whaat arrree youuu dooing to meee?  Imm nootttt sssttuppid!"
what are you talking about Spency I love you! i would never want to hurt you" " ooohh yeeahh well sshhhow mee! maatter off faaacttt ill sshhhoww you" I need her.. I need her badly at least only once make her all mine…so I grabbed her by the neck and started kissing her, caressing her, making her feel like she deserves.. clothes started to come off I kissed every single inch of her body taking in all her beuty caressing her breasts feeling her warm skin against mine…once we got to my bed all I remember is touching her working my way down and then… thats IT! my memory faded away after that moment everything is blank…

Next morning I woke up slowly opening my eyes just staring up "holy fuck my head is pounding ADVILL!!" then i realized ..OMG IM NAKED!! WHAT THAT HELL HAPPEN LAST NIGHT! did I have sex with Ashley? was that Ashley? I cant even think my head hurts too much.. then I turned around and saw the person next to me HOW could this be no! I didnt! she was half naked! half naked in my bed! this can’t be happening! "KAYLA!" what I was I thinking no matter what you do NOT fuck your best friend! specially when they just told you that they are deeply in love with you OMG! then she opened her eyes and jumped out of bed "omg Spencer I.. I’m so sorry I.. I fell asleep" too much to process! " Did we? Did we umm have sex?.. ahh of course we did ah Kayla I’m so sorry " ..great so i manage to get rejected by the love of my life then found out my best friend is in love with me later for me to get completly wasted and oh yea ending up having sex with MY BEST FRIEND! and all of that under twenty four hours MAN SPencer thats a record even for you!.. and when i though things couldnt get worse well guess what oh yea THEY SO DID! "Spencer!? Spencer?! i hope you don’t mind me coming in I didnt see your parents car so I figure you were by yourself? I want to talk about yesterday I..I was wrong I love you too much not to be with you baby! Are you upstairs? I’m coming up!?" AHHHH! holy fucking mother EFING SHIT AHHHHH ITS ASHLEY why oh why!? im still naked in the room with a half naked Kayla Im so confused I still dont know what happen yesterday and did she said she wanted to be with me?! WHAT What! what do I do ahh hide spencer HIDE Under the bed No! In the closet! NO Stupid! HIDE KAYLA! she is the one that doesnt live here! "K I have no idea what happen yesterday but I think the lack of clothing and us waking up here is kind off obvious but please hide please I.. I cant lose her.." at that moment she looked at me with so much pain in her eyes with tears almost coming out and went in my closet she was hiding.. she was hiding for me!…It was tearing me apart but i know i wouldnt be able to deal with Ashley’s reaction if she saw this… "Spence there you are I.. Wow you sleep naked? why didnt you tell me before i would of love to have a sleep over!" I couldnt help but blush all that was covering me was a pillow and part of my bed sheets.. "umm umm I.. I.. yea I sleep naked sometimes you know to be free.." i know i shouldnt have lie like that but I couldnt help it "its ok spency dont be embarress.. I just wanted to tell you how wrong I was yesterday.. after I left i couldnt stop thinking about you about how much i love you and I trust you I know you wouldnt hurt me ever again" why couldnt have figured this out yesterday serioulsy why Im like cursed seriously omg i dont want to lose her " Ashley you know i love you more than anything in this life i would never want to hurt you or even try".. " I know spency thats why I came back but haha how about we talk about this during breakfast come on lets get you dress"…" Yea that would be nice wait wait no dont happen that NO!" for a second i forgot about everything that had happen and I was just happy for like a fraction of a second I was actually happy… guess what happen next.. oh yes she saw Kayla when she opened the closet and I would never forget her expression so much pain so much dissapointment "one night! you couldnt even wait one night and WITH KAYLA!. Spencer you knew that i love you why couldnt you just fight a little more for me for US please tell me you didnt do this please" "but but Ashley.." Kayla tried to talk but Ashley just cut her off.." No I cant deal with this.." and then again the love of my life walked away.. walked away and left again and this time maybe forever..

and there I was standing naked in my bedroom with Kayla " you though it was her last night didnt you spency?" tears were rolling down her eyes, each tear making my heart burn, break, explote! " K I.. I.. im soo sorry.." i was just going from one horrible heartbreak to another this is not fair! it was killing me kayla is my best friend I would never try to hurt her " DID YOU Spency? please tell me the truth JUST ANSWER ME!" i couldnt even look at her i knew i was killing her.. her heart was broken.."yes.. but k I was so drunk I never would of done such a thing to hurt you.. you know me I love you K you are my best friend! you one of the most important person in my life" she just stared at me i knew how she felt she look exactly like me heartbroken.." K listen to me please I dont want to lose you too please dont leave me" i couldnt lose the most important people in my life the same day "no Spence i cant do this right now I..I have to go" i had to let her go I couldnt stop her i knew she needed space I wasnt going to stop trying to talk to her but I had to let her go for now… as soon she was going through my door she turned around "Don’t worry Spencer nothing happen you should know better I would never do something to hurt you either however kissing you was the best thing that ever happen to me and I dont regret it even though you were drunk .." and then she left too and yup once again i was left alone and heartbroken but this time I didnt have my best friend to go cry too..

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