Here I am right in front of them.. I though I could face it but oh! how wrong I was..yea spencer you are strong who am I kidding!…ahh no I can’t I don’t want to know the truth its obvious come on! they are hiding from me and now they are out on a date soon they will fall in love and be perfect for eachother forever.. that’s when it hit me..
if they are happy together I should be happy for them even though ashley is the love of my life and I don’t want her to be with anyone but me, I care more about her happiness then mine I hurt her too much and kayla… I love her she is my best friend I can’t do that to her.. “Spencer we need to talk” oh no ashley please don’t say that those three words are never good.. I knew it! I knew it! She is gonna tell me how she is with her now and how much better she is.. oh god ill never be happy my heart belongs to her no matter what I know she was the one.. I better start thinking the names of my cats umm doodle maybe? ” look spency I’m so sorr..” I cut her off “no ash you don’t have to say it” kayla was just there staring at me but I couldn’t figure out her expression did she hate me? Love me? I don’t deserve ashley I know it now I’m not good enough I’m not worth it.. I can’t do this I have to go please I need to get out here! And before ashley could say something else..”please just make eachother happy.. for me”..and with that I ran.. “No wait spencer!”.. I didn’t want to listen the truth hurts.. I ran out of there not looking back not even aware where I was running too.. every step I was dying every step my happiness was fading away she wasn’t mine anymore.. Tears don’t fall.. Spencer be strong! god please help me!.. then everything went black my life was over and the last thing I saw were the headlights my world turned into darkness everything just ended..

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