“Why did you agree to that when you know that it will hurt you?” Kyla asked me.

“Because she is whipped to Spencer.” Aiden replied for me. Fuck you Aiden! I am not whipped!

“I am not whipped! You are whipped!” Yeah, when I’m drunk I get defensive.

“I am kinda whipped.” Aiden admitted, making gooey with Kyla. Uhg, I feel like vomiting and its not because of the beer.

“Please, spare me the mushy shit. I think I’m gonna be sick.”

“You’re just jealous that you don’t have someone you can be all mushy with.” Kyla said, while crawling on Aiden’s lap.

“No! I’m a bad-ass! I don’t need sappy stuff in my life. All I need is”

“Spencer.” Aiden told me, a knowing smile on his face.

Suddenly, the opening of my empty bottle of beer looks really interesting. “… Its just… I have never seen her be all over another girl before.” I told them, misery lacing my voice. “She had flings before but none of them made her sad to a point of brooding or giddy with excitement or…” I sighed and continued, “None of them made her really really happy. More than happy when…” I can’t finish that sentence.

“when she’s with you?” Kyla finished for me.

“Yeah.” I said meeting Kyla’s eyes.

“Do you love her Ashley?” I was about to go all defensive again and say ‘of course I love her, she’s my friend’ but the look Kyla and Aiden is giving me is so sincere that I know that the least I can do is tell them the truth.

“Yes.” I suddenly feel tears running down my eyes. I know that this is embarrassing beyond belief especially after declaring awhile ago that I am bad-ass but somehow the tears keep falling and I can’t stop it – I don’t want to stop it. Aiden and Kyla are immediately on my sides; Kyla embracing me in a sideways hug while Aiden rubbing my back. This is only the second time that I cried ever since I became a teenager – the first time was when my father died.

I’m crying because I’m sad that Spencer is finding happiness somewhere else. I’m crying because I’m happy that I finally understand what I have been feeling. And I’m crying because I’m in love with my best friend.

Happiness and Sadness all laced to being in love.

Some drama huh?