Everyone thinks are family is so perfect, but in reality, we have no family. My Catholic mother, Paula, who thinks she can do whatever she wants. My dad, Arthur, left when I was 2 years old, and now I have a step-father, Ben. My mother and him are super religious, which you can see isn’t going to go well when I decide to come out. My brother, Glen, who only cares about basketball and girls. My sister, Abby, who already has a kid at the age of 19. I love my nephew, Clay to death. His dad, Sean, died in a car accident. My brother and sister are the spitting image of my mother with the views to match. How unlucky am I, to live in a family where everyone finds homosexuality to be the most vile thing every exist. They find it to be the most repulsive thing that they have ever seen, I don’t understand how I could have been in this family. Even before I found out that I was a lesbian, I still couldn’t understand why people were so angry and judgmental. I don’t see the difference between a man and man being together, or a man and a woman, or even a woman and woman being together, we still love the same as any other person in a relationship. My parents are always going out at night with friends like if they were the teenagers instead of us. We have no family in my opinion, we never eat together or really do anything that involve us being together. We argue all the time, and when we go to other peoples house, or people visit us, they act as if we are the perfect family, like we never argue, and love each other so much. What a bunch of bullshit. Time to put on my mask and continue with life as I know it. I’m Spence and I really need someone to help me.

Ashley’s POV

I switched out of my art class because I don’t want Spencer to get the wrong idea, and think that I am still with Aiden. Everyday, I pray that she will get the courage to talk to me, but then I remember that I’m the one that has to do something if I want to get the ball rolling, so to speak. I see her talking to this blonde girl from her photo class, I think her name is Kelly. Spencer laughs at something she says and I can’t help the feeling of jealousy that goes through me, wishing that I could be the one to make her laugh, or put the smile that she is wearing on her face. They separate and I see her coming in my direction, and I know that I have to do something and fast. I pretend that I am looking the other way, and bump into her, causing all our books to crash to the floor, along with her. I hurriedly kneel before her and start picking up her books. " I am so sorry, I wasn’t looking where I was going," she apologizes. I couldn’t believe she was apologizing for something I did to her, didn’t I tell you she was perfect. " No, its my fault for not paying attention to where I was heading," I tell her quickly. "Here, let me help you up," I stand to take her hand and pull her up. "Thank you for the lift," she says and I hand her books, which she thanks me for also. "Hey, you’re in my gym class, right?" I ask like if I don’t watch her. "Yeah, I think so, I’ve seen you a couple of times," she responds. "Ashley Davis," I say as I stick out my hand. "Spencer Carlin, nice to officially meet you," she says in that beautiful, soft tone of hers. "Well, Spencer, since we are already late for our class and I bumped into you, how about we get out of this place?" I ask hopefully. Please say yes, please say yes, I chant in my head. "I would love to," she says. Score! "but won’t we get into trouble for skipping." I have to think of something quick. "Come on, I want to take you somewhere that will blow your mind, just have your parents sign a note without them knowing, or I’ll give you one of mine, please." I say with a pout that I have been using for years to get my way. "Ok, I give, lets go already," she says. Yes! So, we get to the parking lot and I get into my Porsche. Spencer’s eyes get so wide I thought they would pop out, seriously. "This is yours," she inquires. You can hear the astonishment in her voice. Yeah, I just got my license about a week ago, and my parents decided to give me a car. "Yeah, I got it a couple of days ago, you like?" I ask. She just nods her head while getting in the car. So, we get out of this prison, and now I have to figure out where to take her. I can’t believe I have Spencer Carlin in my car. I decide to take her to my favorite hang out spot, nobody knows about it, its right on the beach. We get to the beach, and I turn to look at Spencer. "The beach, I thought we were going somewhere mind blowing. And I don’t have a bathing suit." She responds with a confusing look that makes me just want to kiss it off. "I have an extra bathing suit, and we aren’t at the spot yet. I’ve never taken anyone there" I tell her. She just smiles and gets out of the car. I take her my spot and we sit. "It’s beautiful, how did you find this place,” she asks with a look of amazement. "I was walking around when I saw it, it was so relaxing, this is the place I go to when I feel lonely or just want to be alone." I say. "And why would you be alone, you have it all," she responds. "No that is what people think, but I have always been alone." I say sadly. "Well, I promise you as long as I’m your friend that you will never be alone," she says. "Don’t make promises you can’t keep, I’ve had enough of that" I say, remembering every lie I was told, every promise broken. "I will keep this promise," she says as she hands me a piece of paper, " if you ever feel lonely call me." I unfold the paper to see that her number written on it, I quickly put it in my pocket. "Here, the same goes to you," I take out my cell phone and ask for hers, so I can put in my number, and put hers in mine. I give her back her phone. We start talking, but are interrupted by her phone ringing, Apologize by One Republic. Spencer looks at her phone and rolls her eyes. She opens it and says in the coldest phone I have ever heard, "Hello, mother." "Yes, I left school early, I wasn’t feeling well." "I went to a friends house." "You don’t know her." "It’s none of your business." "Fine, whatever." "Yes, I’m coming." I really wish I could hear what her mother was saying. Her mother must be a real bitch for Spencer to speak so coldly to someone. I have a feeling that she has to leave now by the way her eyes look so apologetically. "Bye." She says and snaps the phone shut. "Sorry, my mom says I have to get home now," she starts to apologize like it’s her fault. "It’s ok, its getting late anyway. Maybe you could ask your mom if you can stay over Friday since you’ll be able to stay the weekend, you know hang out, get to know each other better." I’m almost afraid of what she is going to tell me. "I would love to, I’ll ask tomorrow," she says cheerfully. "Could you give me a ride to your house after school though, I doubt she will give me one," she says sweetly. I thought I say a flash of pain and sorrow go through her eyes, but maybe I’m just seeing things. "Of course, see you at school," I say as we get to her house. For some reason she gives me a hug and a kiss on the cheek before getting out of the car. I watch her walk to her door with my mouth open and my hand touching my right cheek, where she gave me a kiss. She gets to her door and as she turns the knob, she looks back at me, and flashes that adorable smile at me. I think I just forgot how to breathe. I wasn’t until I heard the door close that I realized that I was still sitting in my car. I drove home and had the best dream that night about Spencer coming to my room and telling how much she loved me, and after that she showed me just how much. I had a smile on my face the entire time I slept, she showed me how much she loved me over and over again. Best dream ever by far, no doubt about it. I’m Ashley Davis and I am never going to forget today for as long as I live.