Ashley: “Penny for your thoughts?”

Spencer looked up at me sadly

Spencer: “We cant do this Ash, not while im with Abby. It’ll break her heart knowing that her gf is cheating on her with her bestfriend”

I let out a sigh and nodded

Ashley: “Yeah, i know…so what are we going to do?”

Spencer: “I dont know honestly”

She sighed and sat quietly

Ashley: “Well whatever you decide Spence, ill understand”

She looked at me and gave me a half smile

Spencer: “Thanks”

We sat there talking about anything and everything before she had to go home and leave me to my thoughts in this horrible place.

{Spencers POV}

Ashley or Abby, Ashley OR Abby, Ash or Abs, Ash OR Abs! Im once again thinking about which girl I should choose. Both of them are truly amazing in their own way and both know how to make me happy. Its been a week since I almost kissed Ashley in her hospital room and its also been that long since I hardly talked to her. Ive been too busy beating my brains out trying to figure what girl is right for me that I havent been really talking to anyone, except for a little ‘ohs’ and ‘yeahs’ and a few nods. I was laying flat on my bed with my arm and legs sprawled out on the blanket and one hand massaging my scalp. Then there was a knock on my door and I sighed in frustration.

Spencer: “Come in!”

My door was opened and in walked Abby. I sat up slowly while she closed my door and took a seat next to me.

Abby: “Hey baby, are you okay? You’ve been ignoring my calls and texts all day so I thought id come check up on you”

I can hear the worry in her voice causing to tug on my heart strings.

Spencer: “Im sorry babe, Ive just have a lot on my mind”

She took my hand and laced our fingers together.

Abby: “Wanna talk about it?”

I shook my head and sighed.

Spencer: “Not really”

Abby: “Okay then..”

I can hear the hurt and small crack in her voice. Taking that as my cue, I placed my hand on her cheek and kissed her lips softly. She kissed back and I couldn’t help to let out a small moan when her teeth bit down onto my bottom lip. She then pushed me back gently on the bed and crawled ontop of me. The kiss got harder and the room became hotter. Tongues clashed for dominance and breathes became uncontrollable. My fingers tangled in her black hair as she started kissing and nipping at my neck. Next thing I know, clothes are being shredded from our bodies and skin contacted with skin. Her skin was incredibly soft against mine and she tasted so amazing that I thought id become obsessed. Tongues traveled along skin and in forbidden places. Hands slid down skin as nails grazed and scratched along it. Moans became screams, whimpers became breathless, and bodies became shook with pleasure. After everything of loving and caring for each others needs, we laid helpless and in desperate need of sleep.

Abby: “I love you Spencer”

She whispered, cutting the quietness of the room like a knife cutting butter. Her eyes were closed and a small smile on her face. She seemed happy with her words, however, my tongue stuck to the top of my mouth and my throat became dry. I was nowhere near ready to hear those words nor say them. At that moment all I could stutter out was two words.

Spencer: “Me too”

With that she fell asleep and I laid there holding her in my arms and cant help to think….what did I just do?