Previously: 

"Listen, um you are new here and we are still in the process of getting to know each other," "I am going to be honest with you I like you too, but I don’t want to go there with you….not yet."

"Oh" she sounds so disappointed it almost makes me feel like recanting.

"Normally I would, but I feel like we should wait a little while because I know that once you get to school you will hear things about me and most of them are probably true so just wait and see how you feel after you find out what I am all about."

"Ok," she says "But I get the feeling that whatever people have to say about you it won’t change anything."

She really knows how to lay it on a girl…damn this was supposed to be easy, but it is clear that once you start to care things just get harder but maybe she is worth it….

About a month later:

It has been about a month since Spencer Carlin came into my life and now I can’t see my future without her in it. We have spent sooo much time together that she is like my other half. I have been enjoying all of this time we spend together but things are starting to get a little complicated. There are rumors going on around school and me going out, running game and getting my reward for it is just not the same because none of them have anything on Spencer. I don’t want things to be like that with Spencer anyways but I can’t tell by me going out a doing these things hurts her. I can see it in her face everytime I look at her. That longing and desire but I can’t hurt her…..I won’t.

I guess she wasnt lying when she said what people say wouldnt change the way that she felt because Madison and and of the other cheer hoes where all in her ear giving her the skinny about my past and Aiden and I told her that "Yeah it’s all true" I wasn’t even about to deny it, I mean I couldn’t. She took it a little hard at first but she still wanted to be around me which was the upside but this just proved to me that it is for the best that we stay just friends because I don’t know what I would do if my ways effected her so much she wasn’t around anymore. Sounds like a plan right? Yeah I thought so too until the day it all changed.