Spencer

"Hey baby"

"Hey hunny" I respond. All of our conversations just flow, there are never any awkward moments between the both of us. It must’ve helped that we were friends before we got together. We just talk about random stuff, anything, as long as we can hear each other’s voice. I seriously don’t think I could go one day without talking to the love of my life.

We have been talking for a while now, and the question I’ve been trying to avoid our whole conversation comes up.

"So, are you going?" I don’t know how to answer that question. Should I respond what I want to do, or what I was told earlier by the bitch also known as my mother. I think and decide to answer it the only way that won’t hurt either of us.

"I don’t know yet" I’m not exactly lying, its true because I am still waiting up for my dad and he has a big say in this. So, for the first time since we’ve been together, we are having and awkward moment of silence. I hate this so I decide to break the silence we caught ourselves in.

"So, anything new baby?"

"No." That’s all the response I got. Apparently neither of us was in the mood to talk so I decide if neither of us wants to talk then I might as well end this conversation.

"Well, I guess Ill call you back later with a definite answer, sorry I couldn’t answer you right now." I hang up before my ‘lover’ could answer, I hate when my baby is mad but I’m not in the mood right now either.

I decide to take a nap, clear my mind, and forget about the ‘argument’ we just had, and yeah it’s an argument for us, when we argue we do the opposite of what other ‘normal’ couples do, we don’t talk to each other instead of screaming and such.

I lay down on my bed and close my eyes, I can feel myself go to dreamland and hope that when I wake up my father is home so I can talk to him.

Ashley

"Hey Baby"

I’m responded with the usual ‘Hey Hunny’ and I smile at it of course. We talk for a while, the usual stuff, school, love, and when I say love I mean us. We’ve been talking for a while now and I need an answer. I know my baby has been trying to avoid this question the whole conversation but I need to know.

"So, are you going?" The person on the other end of the line, my sweetie, is taking longer than normal to answer such a simple question.

"I don’t know yet" That’s all I hear. And I don’t like those answers, my baby knows this, I need a yes or a no not a maybe or an I don’t know, but no I’m told this anyway.

And now the awkwardness that I hate so much, we usually never have these moments, but this is one of those unusual moments, apparently my baby wants to stop it so I’m asked something.

I don’t know what I was asked but I decide to answer it anyway.

"No" That’s all the answer I’m willing to give. I don’t care if the question was do you still love me or do you think I deserve to live. My baby knows how important this is to me. Fuck it, I’m just going to say that I’ll call them later but I’m beat to it.

I’m not even sure what I was just told but all I hear now is a dial tone. God I hate when I’m hanged up on, especially by my love. Well my ‘love’ not even sure, lately it’s been weird, I think I’m going to be broken up with, because it’s been really weird, especially the last time we made love, it was really awkward.

Since I’m going away for a while maybe I should just put our relationship on a break just for a while. Yeah, especially since I’m going to be going alone probably, I know my baby has to ask the parents and such and they’re probably going to say no or maybe my baby doesn’t even want to go, because that’s what it sounds like

God, I don’t know what to do anymore. I’m going to sleep on it and when I wake up hopefully I know what I want to do..