Why did things go so wrong….

I can’t face going to sleep, I can’t have that dream again! I’m with Aiden, I made my choice and I’m happy with it.  This summer with Aiden was fun, there was no pressure, no arguments, lots of sex…. which actually did leave something to be desired…. and no thoughts of Spencer, well at least  not that many anyway. So why am I afraid to go to sleep?…. coz as fun as it was, there was something missing!  Why, now that school is starting tomorrow and it’s almost a certainty that I’m going to see Spencer, am I suddenly filled with so much doubt, why am I so scared? Ashley Davies does not do scared, she does not do unsure and she sure as hell does not do nervous!! Shit, I’m on the phone with Aiden…. Pay attention Ashley!!

“What you thinking about?”

“Nothing, just we’d better say goodnight we’ve got school tomorrow remember?”

“Yeah, and I can’t wait…. You think we’ll see Spencer, I kinda missed her over the summer?”

“I hope we don’t” Ashley whispered under her breath

“What was that babe?”

“I said I’m sure we will…. now go to sleep and don’t you dare snore, I need my beauty sleep for tomorrow, gotta look HOT for the first day of school and all”

“You always look hot”

Thank god he bought it, ok so just say goodnight and get him off the phone so you can clear your head!

“You ok babe, seems like you’ve got something on your mind?”

“I’m fine Aiden, I’m just wishing you were here” She lied, she didn’t want to make him feel insecure or worry, that was something she definitely couldn’t deal with that right now.

“I wish I was there too…. Night babe, see you tomorrow”

“Night Aiden”

Ashley hung up the phone and just lay on her bed in silence, she promised herself she would never do this, promised herself that the past was in the past. But as she lay there, she let the last night her and Spencer spent together play through her mind. She may not have contacted Spencer, or asked her family about her, but part of her was a little upset that Spencer had not called her or at least made an effort.  They had promised each other that nothing would come between them, not even the break-up of their relationship.  Most people said they were being silly, that you couldn’t make that kind of promise, but Ashley had believed Spencer when she had said that they would always be friends.