“See you tomorrow, then, Tina.” My voice sounds colder than I want it to sound. “I have to go too, guys, if I want to catch my bus.” I emphasize the last word.

As I walk to the bus stop, my mind starts racing. Where does this weird tension between the two of us come from? We’re really good friends now, but there is also something awkward. It’s like we are pulling and pushing, but she doesn’t even have feelings for me. I don’t have feelings for her. She is a friend, a straight friend, with a boyfriend who is nice. God knows nice guys are rare in high school.

I know Gary treats her well, so why do I feel she shouldn’t be with him? He’s really at ease with himself and he radiates that peace. You automatically feel comfortable with him.

I know that I would never fall for him. As good as he is, there is something about him that makes him unattractive to me – not only the fact that he is male.

I see the bus arrive and as I get in, it hits me. He’s safe. I don’t know him enough to be able to say he’s boring. He has a band, of course he’s not. But I do see him getting boring.

So many guys have a band in high school, even in college, but mostly, it’s not really serious. He does take it serious. He wants to be a musician and as much as the rest of us try to convince him he should consider another education in case he doesn’t make it, he keeps on dreaming.

Seth, Tuomas, Lee, Tina and I are all doing this for fun. We wouldn’t complain if we’d have succes, but it’s not something we live for. We all do with great pleasure, but as I said; it’s fun.

You have to be so lucky to get noticed by anyone and get to turn your hobby into your job. The chance that happens to Gary is so small, and he doesn’t see it. I guess he’ll have to get himself a job he doesn’t like and he’ll probably be all frustrated about it and not easy to live with.