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    A Long Walk – 4, pt. I

    Story written on June 6, 2006 by tiff_duke.
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    Let’s play Find the Freudian Slip.

    Tina let out a small laugh. "At that point I guess I’d pretty much gotten over my belief that there’s one person in the world who was going to be everything to me. I mean, besides Angelica."

    Bette nodded.

    "But he was so excited, and it mattered so much to him, and it made me realize, I’m not going to love him like this. I’m never going to look at him, and think, there’s nothing more I could want. The idea of marrying him wasn’t something that made my heart flutter, or make me eager to let the days speed up until I see him again and be his wife. I loved him, yes, but I didn’t love him the way he needs to be loved. The way he deserves to be."

    Bette hesitated, fighting the urge to place a hand of comfort on the blonde’s shoulder.

    "And as much as I really believed that I wasn’t holding out for that perfect someone, that person whose hand fits perfectly into mine and take my breath away just by the sight of her, I didn’t want to compromise." Tina finished. "Because that’s what it was. Compromise. Settling. He was as good as they come, and it wasn’t enough."

    Bette withdrew her hand, unseen by Tina, careful not to cross the line.

    "So we broke up." Tina shrugged. "Then, cut to a couple of months later and I’m dating Helena."

    "I’m sorry."

    "Yeah," Tina sighed. "Maybe it’s fate, you know, or destiny, that I can’t just be happy with someone."

    "That can’t be true."

    "Helena once told me that even if I’m not alone, I’d still be lonely." Tina exchanged wry smiles with Bette. "And that’s from someone who loved me."

    "So you and Helena–?" Bette asked, as she and Tina resumed walking.

    "We figure, what’s a better foundation for a relationship than friendship?"

    Bette shrugged, grinning. "Sex. Money. A union between two kingdoms."

    "Um, no, Bette." Tina laughed.

    Bette acknowledged that. "Okay…"

    "Anyway Helena and I based our relationship on us being friends. That’s what we were." Tina shrugged. "After Henry I pretty much decided Angelica’s going to be my priority. You know, like men — or women — can come and go, but I’ll be good to my daughter. I’ll be the best parent she could have, and it’ll be enough. And for the most part I think I’ve been doing a good job, especially since I can’t seem to latch on to a relationship."

    Bette lifted an eyebrow.

    "I’m an abject romantic failure, let’s face it. I couldn’t make it work with you — twice. Henry turned out to be classic rebound material. Sean was perfect, and I still couldn’t make it work. And for all her patience and everything she and I have been through, I couldn’t even make it work with Helena."

    Bette stopped, and shot her arm out to grab Tina’s arm, causing the blonde to stop and turn.

    "What do you mean, you couldn’t make it work with Helena?"

    Tina sighed. "I mean…"

    Bette looked at her expectantly.

    "Let’s go this way," Tina directed, pointing to a less-populated path.

    Bette glanced at her. "Will this explain why someone who’s in a desk job is out on the field for something she could easily assign to her lackeys?"

    Tina snuck a glance at her. "You caught that, huh?"

    "Tell me."

    "Okay, in the spirit of honesty, and candor, and this friend thing we’ve got going on," Tina said, "Helena and I broke up."

    "You said you just came from England."

    "Yes, where she broke up with me." Tina took a deep breath. "As you may or may not know, she’d uprooted to England, and only visits New York for me and her kids. We always discussed me going to London while you have Angelica, because traveling across the Atlantic with a child, even at six, just isn’t pleasant. And she won’t have anything to do there and, anyway," Tina cut in her own tirade. "Long story short, Helena broke up with me."

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    4. It’s OK if you broke the chapter in two TD. Tina needed to take a breath anyway. She still squirms, she ducks, she weaves, but at least she hasn’t run away from the questions.

    11. Dear Tiff,You want comments, but you don’t respond to comments. Hmm. Double standard?? Something in the tone of this story does remind me of several of your other stories, Now and Then, Chandelier. I love the intelligent and provocative dialogue between B/T, but I often I feel heart sore after a chapter. And then I wonder if they’re really right for one another…so much pain, so much sorrow…it’s not good for the soul. Cheers.

    12. Tiff..you’re officially my favorite writer. Ur soo good. Suspensful, we want more Tiff. Feed the needy. I can’t get enough of your stories, so come back Tiff soon.

    13. yes, wonderful…bette is single, tina is single and she did make one slip (well, at least the one i noticed) when talking about sean she said “And as much as I really believed that I wasn’t holding out for that perfect someone, that person whose hand fits perfectly into mine and take my breath away just by the sight of her, I didn’t want to compromise”…she did said HER and for me it only meant BETTE

    14. This is the one and only time that I want to hug Helena because she broke up with Tina. Bette better not run away and from what I am taking from this conversation is that Tina is leaning towards Bette again. I hope in that long walk that these two can put the past away and start anew with Angelica and themselves. I guess I need to check out this movie that you are using as a reference. Please continue this long walk.

    15. “And as much as I really believed that I wasn’t holding out for that perfect someone, that person whose hand fits perfectly into mine and take my breath away just by the sight of her, I didn’t want to compromise.” Tina finished… She said her!! Yea!! This is the only Freudian Slip I’m happy and care about!! If there was a rating system you would get 10 stars! Love this story!

    17. I’m not afraid of reading a extremely long chapter. Please post the rest soon. I guess I’ll like the rest part better since it’ll state Tina is not with anyone now, ha.

    20. OK Bette, here is your chance…..drop down on one knee and ask Tina if she would do you the honor of becoming your wife, to love and to honor for the rest of your life!

    22. hmmm…this is getting very, very interesting! I liked how Bette called her on being in Canada. I kept thinking how odd it was that Tina just sorta ran into her…Well, you have it all exciting now!!!

    28. I love the way this parsed, breaking the second page right at “I mean”, and carrying us over in suspense to the final page. Bette’s free, Tina’s free at the same time. Why not? Love this mature dialogue and romance! Thanks!

    33. This chapter reminded me of my ex. It’s like walking down to the memory lane. Actually it’s kind of sad when you saw someone you once really loved but at last things just can’t work out. All you could do is just wish her well. I guess B/T might felt bitter and sweet when they brought back those memories. Well, just like the taste of life. Nice as always :)

    34. TD this was one hell of a chapter. I hope Bette now understands that this is her opportunity to ask Tina to marry her and have her once again as her wife and in her life forever, to have her family back. GO BETTE!!!!!!!. Please let it happen tiff. Thanks .

    36. How cruel of you to stop here!! Give us the rest asap! I wonder whether B and T really will get together after all the hurt they have inflicted on each other, could be very difficult. But they both seem to be longing for one another…

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