“Well, what do you want me to say, you said it your self. Kissing is no cheating, right?” she answered in a cold angry voice.

‘Shit, this is not good’ Bette thought. “No, I mean I know I said it, but come on if you’ll kiss someone else I’ll be pissed and my guess is that you’re pissed right now”

“Well I guess that Yale degree is finally paying off”

‘Good, anger, that’s good, right…?’ “T, I’m sorry I… she was so hurt and I kept hearing her in my head asking me not to break her heart. I just wanted to ease the pain a little.” ‘Shit that didn’t come out right….’

“Oh, you know fucking her would’ve really ease her pain away!” Tina yelled.

‘Walked right in to that one, god!’ Bette thought and pinched the bridge between her nose to try and ease her headache. “I know, I just thought… I don’t what I thought maybe that I owed her! Maybe that here again I failed someone I cared about. That I’m a fucking screw up that can’t do anything right! That I’m going from one relationship to another and that I’m going to be happy and she’s going to be alone, humiliated. I just wanted it to end well. I…” Bette was now crying freely “I didn’t want to hurt her, I didn’t want to hurt anyone. I just wanted to be with you.” The last part came out like a plea. Tina looked at her Bette looked… defeated, like her wind got knocked out of her. Tina’s look softened again. She reached for Bette’s hand. “I want to be with you too,” she whispered.

“Yeah?” Bette asked through her tears.

“Yeah…”

“Even though I’m a screw up, and kissed Jodie?” ‘God I’m pushing it… but we need to leave this behind.’

‘God she’s pushing it’ “look you and Jodie… you had something and you needed to end it so we can have something. So now we’re going to start from the beginning” Tina said.

“Does that mean we’re going to date? And not sleep together?” Bette looked scared.

“Well let’s not go overboard here. No need to go back to the beginning.” Tina said touching her forehead to Bette’s. “Let’s just leave this past behind us. We’re starting fresh. Forget what happen last month,” Tina said smiling, rubbing her nose to Bette’s.

“OK” Bette said, smiling, a smile that reached her eyes.

‘God what that smile does to me’ Tina thought. “Come on lets go to bed.” she said grinning, reaching her hand to help Bette up. They walked together to the bedroom.

“T?”

“Yeah babe?”

“We don’t have to forget EVERYTHING about the last month do we?”

“What do you mean?”

“Well there were some pretty great moments there” Bette said smiling at the memory.

“Yeah, they were” Tina answered also losing herself in the memory.

Bette walked over to Tina got closer to her ear and whispered, “Like the talking dirty in bed, I really hope we won’t forget that one, and you still need to sit on my lap, tell me if you’ve been good or bed” Bette said teasingly.

“Bette!!!” Tina shrieked trying to stop giggling like a schoolgirl.

 Life was good!